A moment of 2010~

I supposed post this entry earlier in 2011. But then I forgot to post as I kept it in draft for so long until today. But then I did add on some in.

Year 2010 was a tough yet miserable year for me. I've been through very hard life for a year. Tried harder to get myself out from everything that can make me happy. I still remember what have I done in year 2010. But yet there were happy moment too, perhaps.

The happiest moment I have and yet kept inside my mind and soul is with someone so special. It might just ordinary moment for certain people but it's was a great moment to be with that someone. Although we always involved ourselves with argument but what does it mean if there's no argument exist in any relations? Right? 

Year 2010, it was the 5th anniversary of my idol, beloved dad. I am so sad that I couldn't have chance to visit him on that day. Mom afraid to go as only two of us. So we both decided not to go and wait my brother back then we can go visit him. Tak terasa pula oredy 5 years. Times passing so fast. It's like just yesterday he leave me alone in this cruel world. Dad, what a great moment you gave to me when you still around and now you leaved me with all the mess and you know that I am not that strong to go through all of that. If I could take you back home dad, I will force you to stay. I love you dad. I do ~

Year 2010, full of sadness.

Year 2010 brought me a great moment too when Valentines Day fall on Chinese New Year. It was the most wonderful moment I had. The great adventure with dear Eng Eng for Valentines Day project. I was unwell on the day we departed. I had my high fever and flu on the day I reached Sibu. I couldn't walk on waiting for Wan Ling to show up so I end up forced Eng Eng to get a hotel room for us. I afraid that I only making things more worse. It was bad situation when I get really high fever and there's no clinic open late at night. And get myself cough and asthma on the 3rd day. Maybe because of the temperature and tired yet it a long journey to go on. I've never drive myself for long distance. Some more only 2 of us. What a great lady there. I couldn't sleep on the first night and changed for few times the cool fever tape. Eng Eng forced me to take my porridge as I hasn't full up my stomach. I just ma fan Eng Eng with my sickness for the trip. Sigh. But then I forced myself to be more brave and didn't bother to let my family know that I am sick, especially to that someone. I don't want he get worry of me so that I just told him that I was fine but the truth is I am sick. some more. Geez! Staying in Sibu for few days and went to Sarikei for few days. It was tiring journey as I drove from Sarikei straight to Bintulu. And that was the wonderful moment I have again.. my lovely someone waiting me in Bintulu. I am so so happy. He sacrificed his time and CNY holiday just to pick me back to Miri. We stay for a night at Bintulu. And I do appreciate that moment although we stayed at the place that I dislike. It's been so long we didn't spend holiday together since after KL trip. I wish I could turn back time and stop the moment we together. I appreciate our life so much. Never a little I regret to be with him. I miss my honeyboo~

And now we were in year 2011. And my life still the same. I think I don't need to say it here what it is as I've wrote down everything since what had happened after new year eve. I slipped down inside toilet yesterday and that was killing me in pain. Damn! Hurts me deeply! I twisted my arm and wrist. And I couldn't take any heavy things at the moment. And it takes long time for me to type the keyboard, take things, and so on. I couldn't use fully my left side body. I thought I broke my arm yesterday. But the pain still there until now. Couldn't move freely. Sigh! I couldn't imagine again how it felt. 

Have to stop here as my arm and wrist starting sore again.

xoxo