Done with cooking. What a great... I am too tired for everything. Yea..EVERYTHING. Everything that never will happy ending. Emotion that will be remain. Sad emotion the most will just stay forever as it does gave huge impact to me. Happy emotion, that would be takes time. Well, I don't know what to say more in here as I have messy mind right now. Later on type lintang pukang pula.
What I want to say is I'm happy beside him. I don't know how can I tell how is the feeling when beside him. Like the world is bright although in night time. He's my sunshine although he's not mine anymore. It was wonderful moment we had yesterday. Sitting while chit chat with wave sound roughly. Feel want to hug him but I couldn't. Want he hug me so that I can cool down my emotion but I afraid. It's so hard. So hard. He couldn't give himself a chance. While I pray so hard for that. He please to say 'be tabah'. He know how it feel being tabah? It wouldn't be as great as walking on the ground. I have no idea what will happen to me in the future with all the mess around. It wont be great as before. Never will be the same. I don't know where it start wrongly.
Stomach buat ragam today. Seems it know how I feel at the moment. I ate like I didn't eat at all. 3 - 4 spoons can make me full. How will I survive like this? I have no strength as no one beside me. Being hurt by someone you truly care about leaves a hole in heart that only love can fill.
The never happy ending stories~
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