Here I am back again...
I know you guys waiting forward to know what happen to me now yea. Well as what the title tell it all, here I am again, still alive. I've been away from everything for a week? I think so. As I didn't alert on the calendar. I know I am so the very miserable this whole month caused of the certain problems. I managed to pull back myself although not 100% cure. But I still thanks to God that He could brought me again; to try for the new chapter of my life. I know it sound tough but isn't I should be strong-minded? And I know this kind of thing wouldn't be the same as previous. I knew there's something wrong with the relation that I couldn't say it out here. I wish I can have another chance to tell him what the exactly happened but I knew there will be no more chances.
Well its not the actual story I wanna blog here. It's about what I did when I was away. I went to some place that very nice environment and peaceful. Oppss! Not gonna share where is the place. And there is few things new about me. Well, nothing wrong to be new right as long as it can give us strength to go on with our life. Like the title above, 'I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sail to always reach my destination.'. I can change my boat's sail, to achieve my dreams. I must move on with my life as now I have more tough tasks to do. I'm back to study and give my soul and body to God. Right now I don't need to push myself to think about any relations around, which made me became someone that lost direction recently. I have to think selfish for myself as I never think about my own future. But its doesn't mean I forget about my responsibilities to the family. No. I still care about them just that I need to focus more about my future. More supportive are appreciate and God will return it to you guys. I need be more strong-minded in everything starting from now. I should change some part of me starting from now on. There will be no more babies topic or marriage topic in the future, not even LOVE topic. I don't go for it at the moment. Not even once. LPK, served you to have some sort of cheap inn girl to be with you. And I am not same level as that girl. Cheap sales girl some more. I know what happened to you but then you don't even let me to cure you so just go on with the fake feeling love then. Eueww~
A lot of things I learned since many years ago. It's the right time to start the new chapter. So nothing to loss!
The sunshine shinning bright right into me ~
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