What does family mean to you?

Family, to me, are the people that care about you no matter what. Doesn't even matter if they are genetically related, if they love you and you love them back, that's family.

I love my family no matter how they treat me. But I do love myself the most priority (sometimes do hate myself). Although sometimes it does hurts. What I'm gonna say here is about FAMILY. My family. I don't know if it written to have this type of family or it's another temptation from God.

My family, especially brother, really a selfish person. Since ages. Aren't a family should help among each other?? Since before or I can say since school I handling my own things, matter or even my own problems. I will only refer to dad whenever I have problem or need some ideas & opinion. I help people more than I help myself. I ever be a guidance when he caught by teacher for some problems in school. I have to be a liar by saying my parents is not in town. It's just a small matter for me to cover him. Just that I felt guilty be a liar. But the most scary moment in my life (about my brother) when bro trying to harm mom using a knife. I don't really remember what the cause of the incident happened. I brave myself to persuade bro to calm down and give me the knife. I don't know what make he act that way but I understood one thing from the incident. What will happen to mom if I wasn't there? Bro being aggressive when he was in school as he mixed with those immoral friends. Ok back to the story.. at the end I managed to persuaded him to put down the knife and drive him out from home to calm him down. And I did talk heart to heart and ask what does make he be that way. There I have strong mind to be the main character as a sister by motivate him. And now I proud that he didn't choose the wrong path, although he is not helpful type. I always pray for them. For the better life they will have in the future. 

What does family mean to you? 

Now everything changed. People do changed. Whenever I ask for help, I know I will never get successful answer. I don't know why so hard for them to lend their hand to me whilst I never be unfair. And would try harder to full fill their request. I just don't understand why. Sometimes ... well always, I wanted to get out from that house and apart from them for a while and let them feel how it feel without me around. Bro more concern on other people instead being helpful to his own sibling. I always asking myself with the same question, who I am in their heart?

How does it feel? It's really sad, hurt, when you need help or need someone beside you but there's wasn't anyone. Now then I have no one. No one to care about my feeling, my life. Everybody seems far away from me. I am nothing...

 

xoxo