I have struggled all my life. From the time I was a little girl, my life has been hard and many times unhappy. Although my life has been difficult, I always kept a smile when looking at someone. People I knew, as well as strangers, had no idea how sad my life was. When I was a teenager, all I kept saying was that I couldn't wait until I was 21 years old, because I knew my life would be better then it was as a teen. Then when I was in my early 20's, I couldn't wait until I was in my 30's, then 40's. My life has gotten better as the years went on but, I was still struggling and not really happy. Life has never been easy for me. I have always had to work at making my life a little better. Now I am in my 30's and I can't wait until I am 50 years old. I know my life will be a bit easier. It seems that every ten years my life did get a bit easier although I was still struggling. I came to believe that having to struggle was a way of life for me. And I really do hope that one day I will get what I wish for since ages, by the time, I am the most happiest person in this world.
Today, I felt happy at the beginning day and feeling down right now. God, forgive me.
xoxo
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