Play puzzle? Nahh.. it's nothing to do with play puzzle game. My mind get messy right after I get up from my bed. The first thing crossed in my mind was about the blood test result. I am so nervous and so impatient to know the result all about. I do feel afraid too. What if I really 'bloated'? Should or shouldn't I happy? I am totally don't know!! I still can predict to be ok if I really 'bloated' but not if the result show something that really couldn't be really good. I mean bad news which is connected to sickness, serious sickness. Oh God.. please stop the temptation. What I wish for is to have a wonderful life, smile and happy. Yea that's true I couldn't live without someone I love. Not that I couldn't live without man. Unless the person I really love. In reality world, I only love one person since before. Just that the person never realized how much I love him and always thought that I am someone without goodness (as what he said last few days). Yet we've been together for many years I still love him until today. If so I am 'bloated' cos of him, what should I do? How will I convince him that he's the one make me 'bloated'? Mind full of questions. But yet no exact answer for me. I have a lots of thing to think but the most miserable and painful is about relation. I am so amazed everyone who have wonderful relations without worries on their face. But why I couldn't be like them? I'd tried so hard to be the best for him, tried to be the most nicer to him, tried to be MYSELF to him. Yet he couldn't say that now. Where gone all those memories in his heart? Impossible he could forget every single memories we've been through together. It's really impossible. No logical there. What's the good of Indon's girl? Just be together for few months he already said they're married? Ridiculous! Doesn't make sense! We've been together more than 3 years what. I know they also a human. From what I've seen, hear and feel, I have no doubt there must be something wrong. I can smell there's something fishy. He don't even know about what actually happened to himself. I've tried so hard to convince him but yet he don't believe me. There's still existed spell games in this modern world. Don't take it nothing serious about that. I've seen a lot in my entire life. A lots of things ; scenario. Anything can be.. nothing is impossible. He can easily say there's no such thing. Of cos, becos he couldn't feel that. But everyone who can see through it, that's it.
Honeyboo PK ~
Do let me hold your hand once again and put down your heart for being ego for awhile so that you can get your soul back. If you have sense to read this, talk to your heart and praise to the Lord. I am willing to guide you.
But yet I still cant wait to get my blood test. Arghh!! That bothering me more right now. How weak I am now. Getting thin day by day. It's not of worms inside my stomach as what Honeyboo said. It wasn't. When will I get to know the result? Hmmm... Tomorrow? A week? Goshh! Faster nehhh...
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