New year suppose to be a new year for me but since beginning my new year doesn't much different. It's all the same. Old same. I was hoping for the good opportunities but among every hard path I've been through, faith changed my only unexpected job offering. The only thing change in new year. At least, I blessed. Thanks to God for His gift. God watching me and listening to every of my whisper about every painful I been through tis while.
2012 The year of sadness.
Nothing much good things happened in last year. As I don't like to remember those bitter moment in my mind. Enough with what I've been through. I tried to make myself happy and smile but I couldn't. I talk less with people. I prefer to shut down my mouth from say amything. Now my life no longer happy. I less my enjoyment, I losing my weight, I have no heart to attend my new semester studies. I've been sick for a week. My pimples growing up happily..I am so stressful.
Until today, I'm still homeless. Yes I repeating it again and again. My Bear seems doing no action to my life as what he promises. Some more he feeling unwell today. Chinese New Year just about a mont to go. If I couldn't get place to stay, I am totally will be permanently homeless. I am so pity for myself. I couldn't tears anymore. Too sad to myself. He keep spending his money for sometin that worthless but to letting in financial trouble. Do he know how suffering myself at tis moment?? Too much suffering until I decided just to end my life. Why people act selfish when I need their favor?
Never ending story.
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