He's the man... I love the most.

He seems doesn't need me when he's feeling unwell. I felt that I am not so important in his life. Feel myself just another burden to him. Feel guilty some more. I'm trying my best to be by his side when he feel he need me. But I was wrong. I intend to care him but seem he doesn't feel to be care. So I decided not to text him and let he have his rest well. I prays for his health and get well soon. That's all I can do from here. Hope he will look for me for a favor. I do care him, love him so much.. worry him the most. 

I know sometimes I am too much in something but I do hope he understand why I become like that. With life no one care about me, I felt abandoned. I know I did wrong without I realized it. May be for him, relationship enough when both parties saying 'I love you' in a word to show that you're mine and I am yours. My attention nothing more other than concern about his health. He will be fine and I know he's a strong person. 

I know I eargerly to ask him what will he do in term of helping me in my situation. But I do understand he's not in a good health now. Left few days, he will be back to work and I am still with my life nowhere to go. I rather not to talk or discuss about it. I rather go through it by myself. To find the ways to settle up everything thou I am out of ideas. Life such a dramatic and complicated. I almost at the end of my life. I miss those happy and joyful life before. Where I don't need burden, heart ache, cry and stressful with my life. But now I am no longer a strong person. I almost lost everything. I get sick because too much pressure. Restless. Sleepless. I envies on people's life. They seems no problem with their life. How I wish I could have that part of life. Just a piece of happiness. 

To my beloved Bear, love your woman as how you love yourself. Care her more like how you care of your mother. Nothing she want other than attention..as she's need someone that she can put her hope to. She just want happiness, smile and a care from her man. Don't regret at the end of the day when you lost her forever. 

Get well soon. I love you more than I do. 

xoxo