Away quite long from update my blog. I am out of lappy. My baby was admitted from some problem. So I have no other source to update my blog.
I've been away from home since a month ago, more. I've been beat up by irresponsible person whom supposed to protect me as his woman. I walked out from my own house and staying with a friend, until today. I am so pity. From living in hard time, I'm having financial problem. Serious financial problem. Before I have guts to move out from my house, I thought my Bear would lend his hand in helping me, as he promises. But I don't see any improvement yet problem going in time to time. I don't understand what he want me to be actually. I don't understand what he is thinking about his woman's life. May be he enjoy seeing his woman in going through very serious life issues.
If my bear have chance to read this, please be a man. I am no longer be more patience. Don't make me do or make decision that you will regret the most, one day. Because I have my own pride that I have to take care. I am not some type of toy that you can just see and play with. Life just once, don't waste people's life if you doesn't have plan to keep your promises. Left few days you will be back to work and I still have no fix place to stay and no fix financial to live on. If I know this will be happening, I would die in the hand of abuser. I would end up my life without headache my head with all those problem that never ending.
I over stressful without any help from anyone. I have someone that I love but he seems doesn't show any effort on me. I don't know what to do more. I am out of ideas. I given out all of my opinions but seems he doesn't keen to accept. Too much disappointment I received. I regretted with my choice!
xoxo
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