Bubbling mode

You decor your life as how you want it be. I have a friend who always prejudice on how others handling their life. Anything that can be her story and start for the next step which is mocking and judging them. I wonder what in the world she is... She can simply judge and the most irritating is she can curse you badly; without you knowing it. 

We only can see but not to judge anyone. Yes I do judge anyone, sometimes. But not as bad as what my this friend always did. Sometimes, I cannot accept the way she think about others. Nak kata benci kat orang tak juga. Kawan juga dia. Dengki kot. We only can say about others unless we know the real story line. My life always brought controversy among anybody who knows me. I don't really mind what others talk about me, as for me, there is nothing perfect in this world. Neither you. I live the way I am, everyday. I am not a superstar that I need some attention. I am just a ordinary person who just want to live in peaceful. Sometimes I thought myself, why those people love to talk or mock about even just for a small thing. Do they ever look themselves on to the mirror and ask themselves if they have never done anything wrong? 

There's a family whom very envy on my family live - especially the leader of the house, the father. He wanna control everyone's life as he please. But of cause that's not the reason why he should judge us on what he want us to be. Furthermore, I am not his daughter, my mom not his wife too. So why should I obey on every single thing he want us to do. We know how to managing our own life. We never ask for money from you. We work for our own living. I don't need your 'rasuah' just to be your follower. Why would I? This is the 2nd time happened where both party had a huge argument. You spoiled your children not to keep in touch with us again. You are such a spoil and retarded person I've ever see. I know most of the story came from your 'holy' wife. Just because you afraid of your wife, you have guts to mock us without knowing what's behind the truth story. You influenced everyone not to close with us and well, you did it. I can say everyone on your side now. But I don't need any 'soldier' to be my follower as you did. I am a follower of my almighty God. I pray to Him, I believe on Him, I ask forgiveness from Him, I talk to Him about my problems. 

I forgave them for what they did to my family, especially to my mom. Mom was too kind and naive. But never thought they would destroyed mom's trustful toward them. I can forgave them but not to forget on what they did. Only God knows everything. Lord, forgive them for their sins. 

# Day 11, waiting my 'Durian' jatuh. Sigh! How long do I need to wait more? I can be patience but not the banks. Everything need to settle urgently. Duhhh!