Heavy rain and thunder storm here in Miri. Nice cold weather for nice sleep.
What a day I've faced today. Got pretty ugly bruise on my leg. Knocked down because of the dustbin. Great! It not supposed to be place there. I fell down right on the end of my cabinet and table. I was cried painful. Sakit banget! I still can feel the pain. But I am a strong lady. Yeah.. very strong until can cry uh. Until kena scolded by Gummy Bear. Thought wana manja with him but kena scolded pula. :'( Seems I purposely make myself hurt. I have no one to manja with here. Tak kan nak manja with other guy pula or manja with Noodle. Unless Noodle know how to talk to me. That sound creepy. Hurm. Starting from the incident, I am so unlucky today. Sudah jatuh di timpa tangga.
Oh my~~ I was so broken-hearted today. Everything ruined as what had planned. I was hoped for something that promised by today. But the person didn't make it until I text her either she come or not. I waited her for so long just to get my pay. Yet she didn't call or text me by inform me that she will not come. I hate waiting. Sudah lah earlier she ruined the plan, now then she didn't show up to pass me the money. I text her like I am a beggar for my own money. I know she lied me and give me so much excuses. But then yet until today I still don't take it seriously. As I know she's still young. Immature girl. But seriously I hate when someone make promised and then end up break the promised. I hate it when I found out the truth about someone. Because that may end up any relationship between. I am so kind hearted person when it come to friendship or in any relationship. But once you cheat/ back stab/ or even lie me, don't think I will forget that. I accept an apologize but the trust will never be the same. To the person, there will be no more another chances for you to play the tricks on our friendship. I can act like nothing happened. But it will be different view of friendship it be. You should respect and appreciate our friendship. Not taking advantage on that.
I updated my status on Facebook. I was pointed it to one of my friend. But my Gummy Bear was terasa pula. He thought that I might point the status posted to him. LOL. Funny of him. Why? He did something wrong behind me kah? Else he wont say such thing right? I don't get curious before he mentioned about that. But I started curious right after he talk about it. Should I feel suspicious? Or do I have the right to distrust? Well, I am a woman okay. The feeling of suspicious always there. I've given fully trust to my man. So I hope he keep that neatly. I don't mind what he wanna do. As long as both of us know where the limit should be. I love him so much. I appreciate him so much. I respect him. Anything I wanna do or did, I always come to him first for some ideas or opinion. As for me, open mind needed in relationship. Women cant get away from being jealousy. That showing we sayang our love one. Sometimes I felt I have over the limit to say so much when it come to give an advice or opinion. Not that I don't want, but I know that I have no right to say much on making decision. Yet I am not his legal-wife. I am just a girlfriend. I know my level. And I know also that he might wont use any of my opinion. I only can give an advice but the decision still be made by himself. Unless with his fully authorized then I can step on another level of one of his important person in life. Am I? Should I? Could I? Only he know the answer.
Btw, I did received my advance birthday gift given from one of my colleague. Thanks for that. It so lovely.
xoxo
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