I've been told about this story from one of my best buddy. A woman, working person, married to a man and the husband is the most stingiest man in the world. She's been married to this man for about 2 years. Every time the wife go for holiday, she ask for holiday pocket money from the husband. The husband only gave RM200 if the wife go holiday to KL. And only RM50 if the wife go to Kuching. The same thing happened every time the wife go for holiday. So one day the wife asking the husband why the husband give only RM50 for the pocket money. The husband just answered the wife, why must he need to give more pocket money while the wife is working? The wife get frustrated and fade up with the husband, one day, she disappeared without no trace, resigned from her work, move out silently from her parents house. The husband made police report and advertised about his disappeared wife in newspaper. Not long after that, the husband received a divorce paper which is signed by the wife.
Now then the woman live happily without stressful living under the same roof with stingy man. I would do the same thing too. I've been attached for almost 8 years and I can say I am not happy as what people seen. I don't have the courage to do such thing before. But now things different. I've changed. I become more aggressive and more mature in how to handle problems. Life just once. If I don't take the chance, it wont be the same again.
What had happened from the past 7 years learned me a lot. I've been through traumatic life ever and that's more than enough to make a person gone insane. I have right for my own life thou attached. I've talk to myself a lot this few years. Been asking myself what will I do for my future life? How long do I stand by living this way? Money aren't the solution for happiness but without happiness the relationship wont go far. It's all about feeling. About dignity, satisfaction. I am not happy. I have sacrificed too much for everyone. I should think about my own satisfaction. Not because I flirt, people have their own reason about how they conduct their own life. I can't judge on others. We have our own reason 'why' this and that happened. So do I. I know people will ask me why and people will point their fingers to me one day. But why should I bother? Not them who going to be in my life. Not them who going to raise me up. Not them who going to feed me. In this modern world, being selfish is needed sometimes.
I have found someone that can lead me to the goodness. That's what I wish since before. Being with someone that I can hope to, someone that can protect me, someone that can lead me. I have found someone that I really love so much. A better person. I never ask for more, enough with ordinary person. I know I did hurts few persons. But what can I do? I have my own reason of why. Love couldn't be force. Love bringing happiness not frustration.
My wish, every day, every year, every moment, to be with someone that I love until forever. The right person. Not because I don't believe on God. This many years I've pray a lot. Yet I don't see any miracle happen. I stopped my prayer, and I just hope that miracle will come out by itself. I almost giving up on my life.
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