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Life is wonderful, but it can be suck when we, ourselves turn it in to worst situation. Each individual have their own way how to make their life more wonderful than others. Some of them willing to struggle so hard and never give up to achieve for a better life. While others could use different way to achieve their goal. While me have nothing to show off, I use my soul, brain and body to achieve my goals.

Envy. Why should we feel envy for others? The emotion of envy are common sense to everyone. I envy myself. Envy why I couldn't be better. I envy when the time the strength come across but I just let it passing by without stop and use it carefully. I envy on something that I couldn't have while I struggle so hard for it. Although I envy about myself but there are some people who envy on my serba kekurangan punya life. Funny. They would judge and turn my life up side down just because of too envy and wanted to be like me. I don't mind to be their idol for everything but not to mess with me. My pleasure for those who wanna copy right my style. But what make me uncomfortable and piss off is when some people just get jealous / envy on what I have and what I am doing. Or more easy to say, envy on who I am. Come on.. get a life! Anybody can be anyone as they wanted to be. I follow on what my mind say. I be my own selves. I don't need to be like anyone else. I struggled for what I have. Bukan jatuh dari langit pun.

Decided to continue my pending study is the right decision. I have reason for that. At first of cos because of someone who I ever love. Just to improve myself that I am capable to be a better person for him in the future. But then it turn to be worthless as he didn't see everything about me. Other reason is for myself. I need 'something' to guarantee my life in the future. That is what my beloved Daddy wanted to see before. To see his daughter to be someone successful. He ever said, knowledge is not sin. Nothing to loss to learning more. Someday, I'll show and prove to Daddy that his daughter BOLEH! With God willing. For sure I wont just stop until stage one. I'll be on upper stage further. I wanted to be successful person no matter in what profession. Willing to share every knowledge that I know to anyone who need it. Why should be stingy? Who does not thank for little will not thank for much. I hope someday, I can do something that make myself proud to be who I am. Age and the look is not the problem to success. For what I am now, I wanted to be the first to be success. To show to the world that someone with this look/ form can be proud in the future. I never give up in everything I want. Life is wonderful and I grab every opportunities to make it more wonderful for me. Why should I be sad for someone that never will understand what's the meaning of life? Tiada rugi nye.

However, first battle just end. So now waiting for the result and looking forward for new battles. I know I can do it! This is for my haters, I love all of you, so much. No matter what you wanna do to ruin me, it's just NOTHING to me because my life is only for myself. Hate me more will encourage you to be yourself. Love me then.. at least you know how to appreciate yourself ~ 

Got to go~ enjoy my night~

xoxo