My precious Carl #2

Break time for me...

By the time I blogging, my precious son is sleeping so that's why I have time and an idea to blog. This is my 2nd batch of my stories about being a MOTHER. I don't really have free time to type and blog, because I need concentrate on what I have to blog. With Carl awaken it is really possible to free myself blogging like now. Even he is in sleeping mode, sometimes he could hear even my fingers typing sound on computer keyboard. Whenever I start doing my own thing such as watch my favorite Kdrama or blog (as it), it's like he couldn't let me have my personal time. So he make sure will make me distracted. Normally I will on his favorite cartoon (yes at the age of 2 months plus, he have his own interest) or play him Kpop songs. He will enjoy watching it but just for awhile. Carl a type that faster get bored. This is the problem why I hardly have time to blog. 

Being a mother isn't as easy as I thought from began. It is seriously troublesome and tired! But honestly I say I am enjoying the moment being a mother. I doesn't want miss even a second without my child, Carl. It feel like I am losing so much time without spend my time with him. I know the duties being a mother needs me to work up my ass out where I need to change his diapers, feed him, give him shower (thou most of the time it is my mom's duty), put him to sleep (he must breast feed on me, otherwise he probably refused to sleep), wash his feeding bottles, cuddle him if he 'meroyan' and etc. Tired babe! 

This 2 months really a tough time for me. Sleepless and restless sound normal for me now. By the time I blogging already past midnight, where everyone having their dreamland on their comfy bed. No doubt I really miss my 'before being a mother' where I can do a lot of things. I can freely spend my time with my buddies, enjoy working moment, travel, outing for the whole day. But now then I have to limit my time for my 'play time' activities but letting Carl to have my time more for him. He is so adorable to dish out. LOL! I miss my Carl everyday, every moment, every second. Even when we sleep side by side, I can still miss him. Miss to see his pure face. Truly that I am crazy being a mother now. Nothing that can separate me from my boy. I swear who ever or in planning to do something bad or to 'snatch' him from me, I will cut off that person ever. He is my precious, my diamond, my wing, my EVERYTHING. *LOL..I sound overreact..who care* 

Soon, Carl will be 3 months old. Time fly so fast yet I still wanna see him in 'small size'. In another year, I gonna miss to cuddle him, hear his baby babbling and the moment he is still baby. Now he is in learning himself to facing down. My boy is growing up. That so fast. This little boy gonna be a naughty boy after all. I can predict it earlier. One thing funny about Carl, that he doesn't like to ride. When ever I brought him out, he looks like he afraid to be inside car. And when he is about to sleep, we must go on driving all the way to make him sleep soundly. He'll start to cry if the car stop even for awhile. Funny Carl. 

So far, I love being a mother. But at the same time, I am worry being a mother to my little boy. I just worry and conscious that being a mother not as easy as I thought. I always worry if my boy feel alright all the time, cool enough or is he too hot when he is sweating, worry if he doesn't poo for 2 days. Everything about Carl making me worry. May be that's why every mother out there very protected their children. I hope my Carl wont give me so much trouble in the future. I do hope he growing as a good person, a valuable person, smart, intelligent, creative, brilliant, all I can say, good in everything that he should know to survive. So then I wont worry for the rest of my life for being a mother to him. I want he be a person who can be brave and tough when ever he is in difficulty. 

Ok guys, gonna continue my next chapter about My precious Carl~

xoxo