Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment. Throughout life people will make you mad, disrespect you and treat you bad. Let God deal with the thing they do, cause hate in your heart will consume you too. We don't even know when is our time to be call and return to God. But while we still can breathy in the land of the world, we should be as good as we can to God.
A week ago, I've received very shocking news. I've received few missed calls from my ex-colleagues and I was curious why she suddenly call me - few times. So then I rang her back and ask is there anything. The moment I heard what she said on the phone, I totally blur. I don't know what to say. I am in shocked! I just couldn't believe I am losing a friend on that day. A friend for 3 years friendship.
We've been worked together a year before. She's a nice person and she did help much in term of works. We began close to each other, even went for holiday together, have our meals together, shop together, have fun together and can say that 3 years we had a great time together. She's a good friend, you know why? Because she always be nice in front of me, thou I know how she treat me last time. And I never put my hatred toward her. Never thought she will leave us that early.
It happened when she and the other staffs of the Company on their way to estate (I don't particular know what the purpose going to estate on that day). They involved in self accident after started half hour journey from town. What I heard from other friends, the car was driven by ex-supervisor, was lost control after he failed to overtake another car in front. And the time he wanted to back off to the original lane, there the car was spin 10 times. The only unhurt was my ex-supervisor (5 of them). This Ms Kitty (because she loves hello kitty soooo much) still conscious on the scene but unconscious on her way to hospital. She pronounced dead by the doctor after few times given CPR. Doctor failed to save her as she had internal injuries.
That was the most sad moment after I heard she's gone. Why God must take her while she exciting preparing her big day in few months coming. I can imagine how sad and broken heart her fiance to lost her. Once again I realize how fragile is our life and soul to be taken by God, anytime. That make me ponder in a minute, appreciate everything you see and have in the present. Because God can take what's belong to you anytime, any where.
Throwback the moment I lost my beloved dad, that was the most tragic moment I had. He gone without saying a goodbye, not even a word. You so bad dad.. leaving me alone without you beside me. From that moment, I began realize, there is nothing you can do about death. What you can do is, spend more time with everyone, appreciate everything that God given. I began realize, that I should be more strong in conducting my life. I began to love everyone. To love the loves one. Now then I once again, begin, to love my precious son. We cannot buy our happiness with money because that was what God's gift to us. We cannot seek our happiness any where at the road side. Life just once. If you don't change, don't regret by the end of the day.
* Once you learn how to be happy, you won't tolerate being around people who make you feel anything less. Life asked death, "WHY DO PEOPLE LOVE ME BUT HATE YOU?" death responded, "BECAUSE YOU ARE A BEAUTIFUL LIE AND I AM A PAINFUL TRUTH." Every deceased friend is a magnet drawing us into another world. While I thought that I was learning how to live, I have been learning how to die. Death doesn't care about your list of accomplishments or your future plans, so cherish those around you and enjoy, we only live once.*
Now I am thinking, why should I headache my head with people who never think about me. Never appreciate me, never value me as how I valued them. I deserve to be happy, instead. I wouldn't care much about those who doesn't love me, after this. We created by God to appreciate and love ourselves before we share our kind heart to others. I am so much disappointed until I couldn't tears. I've been humiliated, mocked once again, by someone that I love the most. But for me, God knows everything, God knew my heart.
God bless to everyone. Amen.
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