Cinta Aku Seadanya

Happy Sunday~

If we can choose what and which life we want to have, I am pleasure to choose not a perfect life but a happy life, indeed. Siapa tak nak kan. But then it's truly impossible. God gave what He thought its good for everyone and there's thousand meaning behind all of what had happened and what will happen. We thankful for what we have. Tiada siapa yang meminta untuk hidup dalam serba kekurangan dari segi mental dan fizikal. Tiada siapa. Oleh itu apa jua yang melanda, kita harus redha. 

Tiada ku pinta hidup begini, tiada ku pinta rupa sebegini. How I wish some kind of magic appear in front of me and change my life for better one. I don't mind with my appearance but I really want for one thing. A better life. Nah.. it just a dream. Struggled too much this many years yet no improvement. Keep on giving myself encourage and motivation not to give up easily. Sigh!

Things that I really need get rid off is ... first of all, DEBTS! Ya.. debts, I hate having so much (for me too burden lah) debts which is I need to settle off. Make my financial tak stable aje. At least I can take deep breath and away from those debts. Then 2nd, cant wait to finish my car loan so that I can think and plan to have new car. (Hurm..perlu ke?) 3rd, to finish my studies on time with great pointer. So that I can have better income than current. Change new job still in consideration. I don't know if I should change my job once again. Back to previous company where I ever worked with. And the most thing that I really need get rid off is to get out from the hell I am standing right now. Letih asyik kena di persalahkan sedangkan tiada siapa yang mengerti akan sebenarnya yang terjadi. Kau orang aje ke yang betul? So aku tak boleh betul? 

Btw, I've read this one story book which is similar with my life story. Punya lah sedih cerita tu. Hurm. Got to stop here. Stay tune~ 

xoxo