When the money be judges

Christmas still and it was busy day for me. The day I becomed one man show without my assistant to assists me. Geez. Well, at least we did celebrated this year. That’s what daddy want. And I know daddy watching us from there. I know he absolutely happy seeing his family here. Every year Christmas without you around, its completely felt emptiness. You will be the most busy and excited person when Christmas come. You will be the person in-charge for the event. But now, we did it but not as the best as you did. Merry Christmas dad~ we do remember you every moment. You are remain in our heart, forever. Suddenly miss you, daddy.

Christmas are the best event in this world. May be because of the Christmas tree, or for the gifts, or might when every Christmas has snow? Not in Malaysia. Since I know about Christmas, know existed snows, I put my dream one day I would touch and hold the ice of snow on Christmas day. Everyone do have dreams. That’s one of my dream. Make snow man and decorate it and play with the snow. One day~

Since after my relatives stayed in the house in their school hood, dad, the father of 2 children, a kind heart person, never treat unfairly to everyone in the house. May be because of that me n bro have no chances to feel what other children feel or to have anything that we wanted to have. We don’t have those computer or even own a walkman disc. Not even get chance to play or to experience what’s we wanted. Since I small I like play drum. I like music a lot. I likes instruments. When I was in secondary school, I do have chances to realized my dream to play drum. But I know that I wouldn’t be able to own a set of drums if I really into it. And I know dad never will afford or even thou affordable, he wont be able to buy it for me. He ‘sara’ anak orang lain ehh.. Me and bro have to sacrifice our wishes to have stuffs we want even for our birthday gift. But we never protest. We do understand that father have to manage his financial neatly. He doesn’t mind if he need to sacrifice himself not to have new clothes, not to change his car, etc. With his little pension compensation, he raised everyone in the house. Such a huge responsibilities you had, father.

Now did you see what’s those people that you ever feed up?? Do they thanks you? Do they ever visit you? How will they thanks you, father? Especially their parents, treating Mom like a rubbish. Do you know that father? I’m too sad. You’re too good for them until they forget how they lived before. I wonder if they could do as kind as you, dad. You’ve sacrificed too much for everyone whom not your own family. You don’t even think about yourself. When I growth and start to thank you, you’re gone too early. I know that you like to shop for new clothes. Now then, I afford to get you those clothes, you’re gone too early. What I really wanted to do for you, bring along you to travel where ever I go to. But you’re gone too early. I don’t have chances to thanks you daddy. I know that you’re missing us. You touch my heart whenever you are around to have ‘visit’. We’re looking good dad. Important is I never forget you, once. Suddenly feeling emo lah pula..

For those who still have a father, do respect and appreciate them no matter how good or bad he is. They are such a valuable person in this world. Don’t regret when it’s too late.

xoxo

Bila Cinta ~ Sentimental song for everyone~~

Bila cinta kini
Tak lagi bermakna
Yang ku rasa kini
Hanyalah nestapa
Di tinggalkan cinta masa lalu

Dulu kau tawarkan
Manisnya janjimu
Dan ku sambut itu
Dengan segenap hatiku
Bila engkau pergi
Tinggalkan ku

Hilangnya cintamu
Menusuk hatiku
Hingga ku memilih
Cinta yang fana

Perginya dirimu
Merobek jantungku
Hingga ku terjatuh
Dalam harapan

Bila Cinta ~

WHY

Why?? Why must I sacrifice my time, my life, myself to everyone?? Why should I? Is there no right for me to judge my own life? Why must control my life until I couldn't walk far away from everyone?? 

Why?? Why must I should be surrender most of the time? Is that so hard for them to appreciate or respect me sometimes? I am a human being. I do have pride. I do have right to make any decision. 

Why?? Why must I be a slave most of the time?? Must obedient on everything they instruct, in charge, arrangement. Why I have no right to speak out?? Am I not a part of the family?? Am I just their step daughter, step sister or I can say I am anak pungut tepi jalan??

Why?? Why can't make everything as simple as we should? Why couldn't they put my name or myself when ever in their discussion?? Why must everything to be talk without my notification? 

Why??

I don't understand those people. They keen to help other people whom not from their blood flesh instead. Geez! Remembering those people making myself get moody. Better stop here. Continue next time.

xoxo

Complicated life

How I wish I be a rich person. I mean not too rich but consider affordable to pay anything. Been involved myself in working field about 10 years yet I still don’t have proper financial. Hurm.. what a shame. Sometimes I do feel envy seeing some of people afford to have what they wanted to have. Vacation to any places I want. Pamper myself in Spa, shopping when ever I need, etc. How nice is that.. but then here I am. Still with my most ordinary person who just can see others enjoying their better life.

Its so lucky for those who born with better family background, and can menumpang kesenangan their parents. Easy to say, their parents’ money. Different when it come to my life. My parents not a type who can pamper their children with luxury life. Not even once. We only have certain request that only can be approved base on necessary needs. That’s why I prefer save my school allowance and tie up my stomach (fasting) just because wanna have what I wanted. Yea.. teenagers desire in trend. I ever kena scold by dad when I brought back a pair of lather shoes (which is so popular by that time) that I bought using my saving. That’s the first thing I have with my own saving. I still remember that shoes. Too bad that I don’t keep it. But at the same time, dad was so proud of me. He know that his only daughter would survive in her life no matter how hard she going through it. Yes father, struggling so hard for my own life.

Although in my life of 30’s, I still under my parent control. Mom, after dad gone, she controlling every thing. Including our own privacy life. We couldn’t be breath freely. I just don’t understand her sometimes. Yes I know that she worry but not until everything she need to be controller. I am big enough. Not hers 9 years old daughter. I do need my own life, outing with my friends, relax myself, to be alone without interruption. I do need it Mom. Its not because I don’t obey on you. Your children now have they own life, their own responsibilities. What parents do when their children start can survive by their own, is giving them moral support. Not to stop or to limit their achievement. World changing so do everything in this world. We couldn’t just let ourselves kena pijak most of the time. I just hope that Mom could understand the needs of her children. Never once her children forget about her. We know without a MOTHER, we are nothing.

Mom, we love you so much. We just need our own privacy times sometimes. We are still taking care of you, making sure we have time with you. Yes that is what we often doing for you. I myself, dividing my time and put family as priority. When I still in the age of 20’s, I do protest for my own desire. That was past. Now, I prefer to shut my mouth and just let people continuing saying what they think they should. We cant stop them. Just pray to God, ask for forgiveness and bless everyone. And I know I get reward from that. Its no need to revenge, no need to get mad, no need to be prejudice. What will we get from all of that? Satisfaction? Why not we switch our satisfaction to something that worthy, for goodness. One day, we will get lots of reward from what we did for goodness. Experienced is useful. Experienced is my leader. I be advisor to myself.

xoxo

Random

I getting better~ Went to work today and as usual, I sit on my place (new place) doing less work. Everyday. Sigh! I am so stress without work to do. Because I get used to be busy in the office. When will the OPIM (some sort of new software) start. I purposely bought the Wordsearch book just because to kill my time at the office. I brought my novel and other magazines too. Some other people get jealous when they see me 'busy' relaxing myself in the office while I envy on how busy they are. But its not my fault what. Lady boss took away my tasks and handover it to my other colleague. That's why I goyang kaki tunggu salary saja end of the month. Only will busy in certain time.

Okay this is not what I wanna share here. It's about how brainless and no systematic security at one of the famous mall in Miri. I bet everyone know which one of it. There's one day when I and my mom and cousin went to this mall in Miri. We decided to find parking at the upper floor parking lot. We've been stuck in the middle of the railway to the upper floor parking. Been stuck there for more than half hour. Well, as you all know I am the type who will get piss off when I impatient. I pressed hon and make noise. After for few times honed finally we can move a bit. The moment we reached on top, unbelievable! The security keep on letting those cars from tops to go through but not the cars who came from downstairs. No wonder lah cause jammed. Don't they see or even think how nervous those drivers yang takut giler stuck in the middle of the way to top?? Stupid security! I don't understand about that mall management. Hire those brainless security. So action some more. Plus those stupid foreigner drivers acting they own the mall and can simply park their car. I know lah you people come to Miri and sell your money here but at least do respect lah other people. Not because you are foreigner you can do anything to local people in Miri. We respect you, you kena lah respect us. There's no need to show how rude you are mah. I've seen a lot of scenario happened between you all with local people here. 

Hurm..I better stop here then. Emergency!

xoxo

Unwell

Taking another sick leave again today. Caught by high fever last night. Geez. Finally I get sick. I thought I would feel better after taken medicine last night. But get fever again after kena air con. I hate when sore throat. Couldn't simply eat anything while sick. Hurm. Head myself back home this afternoon, I straight away rest myself on bed. I felt so weak and less energy. I didn't realized I fall asleep. 

Once I get sick I have no energy to do anything. And I need assistance to help me in anything too. I know that impossible. I get used to handle and face everything by myself. I don't know why I become so kind to everyone even thou I know they never treat the same as how I treated them. But I know it wouldn't be as what I wanted it to be. Well, it's not big deal for me. For me, silence is golden. :)

Teddy outstation again. Away for few days. I must get use without him around. I know that he need to find extra money for living. Waiting teddy to come back. Hope I'll get better when he back. 

Guys, need relax my mind. Fever coming again~ 

xoxo

Wonderful~

It was sweet day to me as I spent my day with Teddy. It's been long time we didn't spend together like this. Each other has been busy with own time. I am so happy. We had our lunch at Secret Recipe. Seem Teddy never been there so we decided to go there.

This is what I ate for lunch ~ Secret Recipe

We continued walk around the shopping mall and did our window shopping. But ended spent my money bought a book, magazine etc. After our finished our lepaking at shopping mall, we continue our plan with movie. Watch our favorite movie, Breaking Dawn.

Story book of Breaking Dawn ~ Teddy's

 This is what I bought~ 

It's wonderful day. Truly. Spent my time with Teddy wasn't bad thing but full of happiness. Especially when I can smile and laugh, bully Teddy. hehe... 

xoxo

Refresh

I miss my blog! Auwww~ It's been a month didn't update my blog. Been very busy with a lot of things, such as study and work. Now then I have free time to blog inside my sweet lovely blog. Miss it so much. November, since a month away from blog, a lot of things happened. But I can't recalled all of it. So I just posting what I ingat lah k. Hehe.. yea I know it my fault. 

Yeaa I know I have a lot of story to share with. One thing is, exam just finished! Yes. I have one month semester break. Feuwww! I can relax my mind and start my jog activity and outing at nite. It's been 4 months I didn't go for jog. Feel my body aren't happy with that. Huhu.. I need take care more about my health. As I used my brain too much. Especially this semester, it was challenging semester to me. 5 subjects just for 4 months. I'm not sure what will I get for my result. I did all my best for this exam. Now then I don't have confidence to know what will I get. Afraid I will less pointer again. 

Work? The latest news about my work is I moved to my new place which is new department with new tasks. But still in previous profession. My new room (four of us), too sempit for 4 persons lah. This my lady boss darn so stupid idiot. I have one long cabinet and one small drawer. Hurm. She so pandai de. So let she see how is it look like next Tuesday. But its good that I moved. More privacy. 

Other than this two thing there is nothing that I wanna share here. Can't remember other things. Hehe.. 

xoxo

20.10.2011

Today weather so so darn hot! Burning my skin and my mood for sure. I don't even dare to go out under the sun. Geez. I am so beh tahan when seeing mom can spend her time outside the house doing her garden. 

It's my day and  I know I should update my blog on that day. But I was too tired and some more back home late at nite. So I just remind myself to update my blog on the next day, yeah once again I got no time to do so. Sigh! But hey..here I am. Updating my blog~~

Nothing special happen on my birth day. (I was hoping so) :( But then I do received few gifts this year from friends and colleagues. Thanks guys. Next year we do it again yeah.. Now I stepped one digit. Tua sudah nih.. hehe. What's my wish this year birthday? Secret! But its still the same wishes every year. Anyway, I always think tomorrow would be better than today. Cheers~~  

xoxo

October (2, two, dua)

Been away quite long not to blog. Packed schedule given me limited time to sit in front my lappy to update my blog as I am doing now. It's not because I have no story to share with and some of the stories hilang in my memories. Full memory card so I have to remove/ delete some of the data from my brain. Hehe.. I've been away quite long uh. Been busy with my work, study, personal life and family. 

October, too many people born in October. Couple of weeks ago, me and my other colleagues did made some surprise for my close colleagues Ms. Miao Miao. Her birthday fallen on 5th Oct. We bought her a birthday cake with Hello Kitty head on top of the cake. So darn cute that cake. I felt like don't want to eat the cake and keep it. LOL. I bet it was her 1st time birthday celebration since she joined the company for 4 years ago. I still remember my 1st year with my current company I did celebrated my birthday with my colleagues and it was so awesome!! So sweet of them. They even sang me a birthday song. I'm not sure about this year birthday. Seems dull. Idk why. But wish that there's miracle for me. I really wish. I don't put any but I only ask for miracle that really can make me so happy on my birthday. 

Hoping something different to pop up this year. Left 2 month and half will be end of year 2011. Yet I still surrounding with my debts. How I wish I am a rich person. So that I wont bother to think about how to get extra $. Geez. Every year in October, it is a tough month to me. Where there's a lot of people born in October. I have the most important 'birthday' I should 'grant' in October. My baby 'birthday' fallen in October too. His birth certificate need to renew every year else he will not allowed to walk out from his porch. Not sure if I could make it this year as everything seems quite complicated to me. Sigh~ 

Where everyone when I need them? That's the part when human being so selfish. How good if everyone so kind as how I treat them this while. It's not like I want them to pay for what I've been gave. Sometimes to have more siblings is good and merrier and to have few siblings easy to handle. But doesn't matter how many siblings you have if there's no sense of family relationship, the family will never be happy or peaceful. For me, I don't mind how my family treat me, as long as I can make them satisfied and happy. Ya sometimes its hard for me to go through but I have to. They are the only family I have in this world. This the only time I could spend with them. I don't mind at all. Because I know there will be something goods come after. 

That's all for now. Need to full fill my stomach. Makan time. Jom~ Smile~

xoxo

My October

It's my special month, October. The month that I've been waiting for. Hehe.. Might this year its gonna be special and fun. And I am getting another stage of age which is turn to digit 3. Who care? I wont worry on how old I am. But more worry about my health. Healthy bring young skin and young look. 

I likes gift. I like surprise but not some kind of surprise that can make me explode. If it surprise make me happy, I appreciate it. Woo woo...cant wait what will happen on my day. Hope it will be special day and full of happiness. Waiting something from Teddy. I want big big big gift teddy~~ :p

*Yawn*  

Feeling sleepy. It's time to sleep. Nite peeps~

xoxo

October

Dropping by to say hello and at same time testing blogging using my phone~

Will update soon~

xoxo

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Who should to be blame? Them? Or ourselves?

Family …

What an important meaning in our life. A family whom always be there when others need each other. A family whom helping each other. Family that give all the best support to each other. No matter how big or small the family it is, should have better attitude or morality among each other. One family. Tolerate, understanding, rational, team work, etc. That’s what family mean.

How I wish I have a family who really understand everyone, really know how to make a word of ‘family’ a live, wonderful and colorful. What I understand about my family, its seems dull. Everyone busy with their own stuffs. Its been like that for past 6 years ago. People might thought that I do have a happy family. Its just the cover of the book. Its aren’t as what you all thought. I wondering how long more they will acting that way to each other? I mean treating me just like a step daughter or step sister. I ask for nothing from them. What I want just be good to me. Be kind, be nice, understanding my every situation. Be polite, rational, and concern on me. I’m easy to ‘build’ if they put aside their ego. Why its hard for them to be just like me? Is that cost them so much until they never think about my situation? When they need my help, I would try my best to lend my hand for them. But why its so hard for them to do the same when I need their help?

For eg. I have granduncle who are staying with us since after Daddy passed away. My granduncle are someone that so ‘ngiao ji’. I don’t want to talk bad behind him but this the only way I can express my feeling. I know everyone did mistake, and will often make mistake. We’re just human being. We’re created as a human who are weak and easily fall down in to problems. Who does not make mistake? But to have granduncle who never thought the goodness of others other than his favorite people, is ‘menyampah’! I know that I am not his favorite grandchild and I know that I am not gonna be one. Because when ever mom ask help from him, he never do it sincere but to raise up everything that happened. Apa punya datuk macam tu?? My own biologic grandpa pun tak macam dia. Ish.. if he given so many complaint then why still stuck himself there? Hurm. Idk what to say more about this person. He is acting like I live in his house. Why mau pilih kasih? 

World sometimes cruel, some people earn for little but they have happy life. Why? They don't have much burden in every month. Some does earn a lot but have no saving every month. It's really sick when every end of the month you have to mess your head and force your brain to list up or manage your financial. What should you pay, what should pending. We work for living, pay debts, pay bills and so on. We work like a hell, work hard just to earn the little penny. We often heard or read in newspaper or any other network about people suicide because of life movement. Especially when its come to financial. Financial problems the most higher reason what does make people lost their mind and end up with suicide or even mistake. So to who should we blame? Our employer who doesn't give us the pay base on our skills? Or blame ourselves that chosen the work place that only can give pay base on paper? Well, you all got the answer. Each of us do have different thought but there's only one thing we're same. We work, we make business, we earn, for LIVING. Like I pay more you give more. Well there's more I wanna share here but guess I need to stop as my eyes getting tired. To be continue...

Work hard play hard~

Luv you all ~

xoxo

Random

No title for my post as I have no idea what title should I put for my this post. I know that I am quite silent lately. Ya like you know and often read, I have limited time to update my blog. Plus I am feeling unwell recently. I'm having gums problem. It's really painful until I wanted to pull out my tooth so that I wont feel so irritating painful right now. I don't have large appetite cause of this painful. I have to brush it hardly every time I brush my teeth. It's been like that for many years and even dental couldn't do anything on it. Geez! 

2nd Story is about granted gift. Hehe. Me myself never thought that I will kena lottery for one time buy. It's been so long I didn't play some sort of fortune luck. Because I thought myself have no luck. And there goes miracle come when I won for 1st prize lottery, which worth more than RM2K ticket. LOL! Woo woo~~ I am so happy. Now then I can have new gadget for myself! The one that I've been admired since few months ago! Teddy don't jealous sikit k. Jealous banyak2. :p I never thought I kena lottery until that much. It might my luck then. Thanks for those whom insulted and mocked me. It's granted me something that worthy. Remember, believe in karma. Sometimes we don't know there's good things waiting in front. I believe~

What had happened today was really temptations from God. Feeling unwell caused of my gum problem. Then I kena pressed by office building de lift. How painful it is! Huhu.... uwaaaaaaaaaa!! Sakit banget lah! I still can feel the painful and the bruise. That reporter... hurm. I don't know either he did it in purpose or he totally don't know how to differentiate between close and open button. He was inside the lift and I thought he wanna come out since he came from upper floor. But then I look at him, he look at me. So I step on to the lift and when the time my feet stepped in, the door suddenly close up and squeeze me. Betapa sakit nya shoulder aku! Dia hanya say sorry without looking at me. And go just like that once he reach on 1st floor. WTF! No manner at all. Jantan apa tu?! I summon baru tau nanti. Luckily I don't get serious injury. 

Last but not least, I have very common and never ending story de story. Psycho. He still 'hoping' that I will jatuh merayu for him to come back. Uh huh. Such pathetic. There's no words can describe how disgusting he is now. Trash! What he think he is? So handsome meh? So rich meh? Even he kneel with diamond in front of me pun tak guna juga. Unless, the person would buy me a diamond is Teddy. *wink2* Let this psycho stay with his own fantasy. He could have desire to insult me. Not tomorrow or the next day, but some day, one day, he will get the return from what he did. 

Hurm. Didn't realize the time. It's my bed time. Need look fresh every day. My skin getting dry caused of lack of sleep. Teddy, ktk lah polah mek slalu aher tdo tok. :p 

Nite buddies~ Luv yea.. smile~

xoxo

Wish You Were Here

失踪的人

Sneezing non stop. Irritating nose! Go away flu! You make my day turn cloudy. Great enough!

Listening to Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone. It's been long time didn't listen to the song. And I've been mute myself from blog recently. Idk why..may be because I do have limited time or out of idea about what to blog about. Hurm. What happened lately? Nothing special. Just that busy with works and classes. Kinda tired. Now then I have about 4 assignments need to be done. Yet I still fooling around. Yea..last minute punya kerja la tu. Gosh! Mid term exam will be held next month. Geez! I am not ready yet. Work? Still the same. Been busy myself with other people shit, but its ok, I'm doing it sincerely to that person. Now then have to finish the staffs pass card by next week else kena goreng by HQ. Running up and down the floors. Guess I lost my weight easily like this. Huh. Rugi nye aku saving lemak this whole months. 

Missing someone right now. Happy to see him just now, thou just for couple of hours. But I'm glad. Because I know tomorrow never die. It's not the end of the day. 

Going to attend colleague's wedding dinner tomorrow night. Thinking what should I wear. Arhhhh.. tomorrow aje lah think what to wear for the dinner. My brain couldn't functioning well at the moment. Sigh! See yea.. Smile~

xoxo

Cinta Aku Seadanya

Happy Sunday~

If we can choose what and which life we want to have, I am pleasure to choose not a perfect life but a happy life, indeed. Siapa tak nak kan. But then it's truly impossible. God gave what He thought its good for everyone and there's thousand meaning behind all of what had happened and what will happen. We thankful for what we have. Tiada siapa yang meminta untuk hidup dalam serba kekurangan dari segi mental dan fizikal. Tiada siapa. Oleh itu apa jua yang melanda, kita harus redha. 

Tiada ku pinta hidup begini, tiada ku pinta rupa sebegini. How I wish some kind of magic appear in front of me and change my life for better one. I don't mind with my appearance but I really want for one thing. A better life. Nah.. it just a dream. Struggled too much this many years yet no improvement. Keep on giving myself encourage and motivation not to give up easily. Sigh!

Things that I really need get rid off is ... first of all, DEBTS! Ya.. debts, I hate having so much (for me too burden lah) debts which is I need to settle off. Make my financial tak stable aje. At least I can take deep breath and away from those debts. Then 2nd, cant wait to finish my car loan so that I can think and plan to have new car. (Hurm..perlu ke?) 3rd, to finish my studies on time with great pointer. So that I can have better income than current. Change new job still in consideration. I don't know if I should change my job once again. Back to previous company where I ever worked with. And the most thing that I really need get rid off is to get out from the hell I am standing right now. Letih asyik kena di persalahkan sedangkan tiada siapa yang mengerti akan sebenarnya yang terjadi. Kau orang aje ke yang betul? So aku tak boleh betul? 

Btw, I've read this one story book which is similar with my life story. Punya lah sedih cerita tu. Hurm. Got to stop here. Stay tune~ 

xoxo

Irresponsible person he is!

My father never taught me to revenge but to forgive anyone had treat us badly. Dad also never taught his children being bad and irresponsible person. We obey most of what my dad taught us. Thou he no more in this earth, his knowledge, advices, lesson, everything always remind me about how wonderful life it is. How I wish he be here beside me whenever I feel so down.

It's happened today where my precious thing ever, my the only one laptop damaged by irresponsible person or keen to say such an animal. I tears the moment he pijak and hentak his foot on to my laptop. How could he do that?? He have no mercy at all. It's because its not his laptop and he didn't pay for that so he freely and keen to smashed it? Before he smashed my laptop, he hit me using booster from behind. How should we assume this kind of person? A human? Or an animal? For me he is no different than sampah masyarakat. What a such furking bloody hell person he is!

You talk like you never did wrong to your woman. You talk like you are the best among the best. You talk seems like you are so geng. Let me say something, I don't even care who you are. How rich or respectful (fake attitude) you are in front others, worthless if your attitude macam taik! Why should I respect you? Should I respect you? Or should I obey to you like I am a slave? You never want to change yet to against your woman most of the time. She does have feeling too. She does have her right for herself too. Doesn't matter if she is legal person to you, but you should know one thing,she still she is and she still have her right for herself. We're not belong to anyone but we are belong to God. Mati hidup we someday tetap akan return to Him. You ruined her life the day you harassed her. You did changed her to be more agressive, protest, and bad person. You can't blame her in everything because that's all happened because of you. No doubt that everything happened brought me a huge impact and no doubt its changed me to a person whom very hard to trust anyone. Trauma. It takes time.

To that someone. she will be bless by God with a good life start from one day. And by that time which ever curses you all gave to her will return to you all. Just remember one thing, what comes around goes around. She deserve for better life, a better husband, a better chances. She has been wasted her youth life for being with someone who never be a real man to her. Never appreciate her as a woman. Don't regret when one day she become someone who will have a better life.

xoxo 

Sesuatu yang Berbeza - Khas buat si dia

The cute of me...

Cut my hair once again. Little bit different style than before. Yet still look cute~ Hehe.. Don't jealous. Some people did question me why must I cut my hair short. Well, there's few reason. I like short hair. It's not I dislike long hair. I kept long hair since I still in school until 1 (one, satu) year ago I bravely myself walk to one of the saloon in Miri and ask the hair cutter which is my hair consultant now. I have no confidence on how will I look like after I cut my long hair. Just because wanna look different and someone that love to try something new / different. Encourage myself to proceed my plan. 

Lastly, I came out with awesome hair style! And I do like it so much. By that time I belum color my hair lagi. I just let it with nature color. Now then I come out with another different hair style yet it short and what make it different is I did color my hair last few month ago. Ya did mentioned about it in previous post. Awesome~ I become  more cute and cute and cute day to day. (mode puji diri. well to give strength to myself. Tak boleh meh??) Every time I come out with new different thing, way, style, or etc, my strength to go on with my life become more stronger time to time. I don't feel afraid or coward like before. For someone that wanted or have desire to make some changes in their life, just do it. Sometimes it does take time to change, but at least we try to achieve what we want. Apakah aku merepak awal pagi tok.. Hurm..

Listening to my favorite song while having my breakfast; plain water with bun. Today's plan nothing special. Lend hand to help kan di di to angkut his curtain hook or whatever that thing call. Well he need my car to bring back that thing as his 'car' kinda no roof and not big enough to put the thing. Wekekeke~ My weekend might starting boring. Need start doing my assignment and revision. Come on Honey! You must do the best this time. Pay more attention to your study instead fooling around. Hurm.. Headache!

xoxo

Photos taken while on holiday~ Once a year spent much for shop, worth. Shop til I drop! Hehe.. Once a year shop mah. Makan aje kerja kat sana. 

Yummy~

 

Miss all the foods~

It's only for 2nd day shop.. Geez! 

Only some of the selected photos can be posted. Enjoy~ Will come again another day~

xoxo

Hingga Akhir Waktu - Dedicated to those who really appreciate me

Another day another reward

Just back from holiday and rest for a day nia. Now then another outstation awaiting me. Will be away very soon once again. Geez! Kinda tired le. Feeling unwell. But what to do, it's my responsibilities to go on with my tasks. At least I can away to refresh my mind from my paperwork in the office. Well, as long as my life feel good and nothing to headache with. My life getting better and better, hopefully. Full my schedule with a lot of things and. I am quite busy recently. Packed! Hehe..

New semester started and it will be my busy mode with assignments. Hopefully I make much better than previous this time. Improve more. Nothing is impossible. Sometimes we do feel like we really need everything to be complete without any slack. I've received my 2nd semester exam result. Hurm.. kinda disappointed with it but its not the end. I never stop from being strong and tough. No matter how, try more better. I will get the reward someday from being not to give up. I don't mind what people out there might think or assume of me. I don't need them to judge my life as its only between me n God who have the right to judge. What I need now is, to be strong in what ever I am in. And no fear to every temptation that comes to me. 

Should stop here for now on, need zzz and pamper myself~ Nite everyone~ Nite my teddy~

(Will dedicated a song to everyone, especially to Teddy. Song for the night. Enjoy~)

xoxo

Tiring yet fun

It's been few days I was here in KL for holiday. Visited few places, met friends and have fun. Yes I am so happy. Thou it is tiring and my legs punya muscle seems macam mau pecah saja. This year punya trip only focus on shopping. Mega sales babes!~ I shop til I drop! Muahahha!

Enjoyed my KL night with my lovely gorgeous girl friends at one of the club at Bukit Bintang. It was awesome!! It's remind me how is the way me and my closed friend (Sophie) go clubbing last time. We have a lot of fun. Dance on the floor, laughing, joking, drinking and so on. Babe Sop, you're so gorgeous lah with your red gown. And the rest too. The place was packed! Crowded with leng zai~ woo woo~~~ Hehe.. My drink of the night : 1 Jug of Long Island Ice Tea. For them it 1 Jug but for me it consider 1 big glass. Darn! I punya lah terkejut at the first place when the waiter which is so darn funny served my drink. Never been serve with Long Island Ice Tea with that big glass. LOL! We head ourselves back home around 2 or 3 in the morning. I couldn't do anything other than land myself on the bed and zzz. (My favorite GCB at Mcd pun belum makan lagi)

Ok guys, gonna ready for another shopping mode. Need get myself a new luggage as my current luggage tak muat lagi. Will upload few photos soon. Enjoy yea ~~

How much I'm happy? Not counted. I am so happy til I couldn't waive all my happiness around my friends here. Met them was the greatest moment. Luv you all~~

xoxo

Shopping heaven here I am!

Tiring day!~ But I am so happy. It's been long time tak come visit shopping heaven. Shopped til drop! Touch down KL in the afternoon and full fill my empty stomach before start the shopping hunt. So far we've (me and friends) been to few places (shopping complex) to sell off our money. Hehe.. Well, who wanna let go the chance? 

I'm kinda tired ordy. So going to off soon. Tomorrow will another day for shopping mode. Will update more about my day here in big city. Nite everyone~ 

Oh ya..to someone name Lau Puong Kai a.k.a Ah Kai. Do get a life k. Dah dapat sundal Indonesian so fuck her as you want lo. I am not your toy mah. Why le? Shanty Anisa de pussy not good ar? That's why you barking me back?? No way lah psycho. Fuck off!!

xoxo

Saturday Nite!

Great weekend night I have last night. Been fooling outing around with my family members at favorite spot, Al Fresco. Head ourselves back to home at 3am in the morning. It's great when closed family member gathered and have fun, chit chat, gossips and joke around with each other. That's what we usually do. To keep the relationship between each other will remain close forever. But I don't understand certain people (relatives sendiri) 'growth' their enviness to others. 

To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting. Why would we couldn't be happy and have a great fun with people we love? God has given you one face, and you make yourself another. Why? Why must you create something that can make everybody misunderstood to each other. Just don't break the moment everyone have if you could be happy as we are now. We never stop you for being to harsh, not even say any bad words about you and your family. Yet what we 've seen and heard, it does make us felt really bad. I don't get why must some of them show their enviness and against us for something that we don't know what the exactly happen. 

Anyway, it's really a great time sometimes, when everyone can gather like this. That the way we can make the relationship between each other more firm. And no prejudice among each other. Why must bermusuhan sesama sendiri? What will you get for doing that? Nothing right? Hanya sakit hati sendiri. It's only less quoter of us. There's more relatives that can't present their selves last night. There would be lagi jealous lah that one family tengok us have great time. Well, be happy mah. And I bet we have not enough place. Hehe.. 

Hurm. Some how, there's one person sound not happy last night. (Teddy) 

xoxo

AUGUST

First of all, I would like to wish a HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again to my best closed buddy, Gorgeous Sophie! Muahhhh!~ Wish you good luck in everything. Maintain gorgeous, cute, trendy and vogue! Berapa umur sudah ar? Hehehe.. Biarlah rahsia. How's your celebration? I bet you got plans for your special day. Anyway, enjoy & happy on your day yea. I'll be coming soon and we celebrate your belated bday once again. (in any how lah) Cant wait!!

Once again in August ... Teddy's bday. Bought small cake and bday gifts for Teddy. Thou it just simple celebration but we did have great time. Wish Teddy good luck & cheers. No matter how hard life it is, don't put 'give up' words in your dictionary. Anyway, I luv making people happy and smile on what I do for them, no matter on special day or normal day. Because with that way, I'll be happy too. 

New semester just started. Well, another battle to break off. The best part is class 5 hari berturut turut oh. Marvelous sangat sangat lah tu. 5 Subject oh. Bisa bisakkk. I don't know if I can score good pointer for this semester exam. Hopefully I can go through it. Yes I can! Nothing is impossible. Student pula most of them are freshie junior. Hmm..berlagak nampak. Kasih jentik dia orang nanti baru tau. 

I'll be away soon. Be fly off to some where. Will meet my friends! Such a long time didn't meet some of them. Excited giler! I'm coming~ Holiday! At least I can off from the hell of my works ma.. Go relax relax mah...Packing completed! 

xoxo

You suck at Love!

6th Anniversary

Love them when they are still around. Miss them when they're gone. A father and mother, being huge role in their parenthood. They taking care of us since we still in mom's womb. It's 6th anniversary of memorable daddy. It was 2 days ago. I forgot and totally forgot about his day. Until this morning when I suddenly remember his date. I straight away call mom and ask her if she remember dad's anniversary. 

Yes as I know, mom too, forgot about it. I was mad to myself once again This is the first time I forgot about dad's anniversary. I bet he would be angry toward me. I was remember before the day but then I easily forget so this is what had happened. 2 Days passed , today baru ingat. Geez! Apa punya anak lah aku ni. Teruk betul. So we (mom, bro, Vie, Spen and me) went to dad's grave to visit him It's been 2nd time in this year, visited him. 6 Years, yet I still miss him so much. If he is around, or some where nearby, I definitely will go to him and give him a huge hug. I'm sorry dad that I totally forgot about your anniversary. I thought so many things recently. Using too much of my brain and caused me couldn't think wiser. Hmm.. this is your daughter nowadays dad. Help her. Guide her dad. So that she wont easily fall down. Anyway, do received your favorite flower, rose. Sorry dad it doesn't look fresh and pretty anymore, as mom not really good in choosing. I'll get the pretty and fresh rose for you. Just like your cute daughter. Miss you dad. May God bless you.

Story 2

Spent my Friday nite with Teddy. It's Teddy's special day today. Teddy's birthday. He does look moody since afternoon. I did prepared some gifts for him since few days ago. Something that he wanted. I afraid he dislike what ever I give. But I am wrong, he likes and appreciate it! Thanks anyway. And hope that Teddy will always happy and smile no matter what happen. Just don't give up as what Teddy told me. 

Okie, my eyes getting sore. Guess its the time to shut down my eyes. Nite buddies. Smile~

xoxo

Jar Of Hearts

No, I can't take one more step towards you
‘Cause all that's waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time
Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
‘Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

Jar of Hearts

Aku jatuh cinta pada mu...!!!

Fallen in love! Yea..for the first time I saw it, I was like, 'Oh MG! How I wish I own it.' I'm in love~ Woo woo~ Will be my next target. I saw you right in front of my eyes. I saw you, my heart start beating and the desire to have you is 'MUST'! I saw you, I will take care of you bagaikan menatang minyak yang penuh. I saw you, you MIGHT be the last. It's you.. you SAMSUNG GALAXY I~ 

I must own new phone, soon. I've fallen in love with Samsung Galaxy phone. Since when? Recently. I think I don't need Iphone. Might don't how to use that. Samsung Galaxy not bad le. Will get it when my holiday trip. Few things to own in my shopping list. Clothes of cause, mesti tu. Then gadget and might survey for music player for my little kancil. Pity him. He need new player so that he can entertain me while I bring him walk around. Can't wait to fly! Oh seriously can't wait to shop and meet my friends. Everybody! Let's party! 

~ Need start to pack early else might forgot what I should bring. (via excitedmode) wekekeke!

See yea guys~

xoxo

I want it badly!!

Human resource suck!

Sometimes we might don't know what that person capable to do while in anger mood. Might can be most fierce or have desire to fight. That's what happened to me lately. I lost my patience on my HR. Siapa suruh dia cari pasal with me. I've been patience with that makcik dara tua since so long. She's such arrogant human resource and totally no respectful to others. 

It was happened last few days ago when my workplace conduct interview. As everyone know, she macam biasa will action action punya. So one afternoon, there was a lady came by for the interview. While she waiting for the manager return to office, she have been asking me and my other colleague if the manager is around. Just because I assist that lady to another floor, she jadi like anjing gila marah and accused me for sabotage her works pula. Caken nar ehh.. I have no bad intention to sabotage or prejudice toward her pun. I just doing the right thing seems she doesn't care at all about her responsibilities. I know that she will come to me and try to show off her ability to shoot me. Well, she is. She came to my table and say 'thank you' in annoying way. Then she starting her very common style in front me and everyone in the office. Aku ni kalo orang tak cari pasal dulu, aku tak sengat sebarangan. Bila aku dah sengat, menangis ada kau nanti. 

She thought I afraid of her meh?? I ain't got nothing to scare of. For the first time ever I feel so gangster lah. I mean I never gaduh at my workplace pun. LOL! This is the first and the worst. The best word I shouted right on her face is.. 'madafaker!' LMAO!! Sapa suruh cari pasal. My mood dah tak bagus since morning, she pula add on the fire so what for to wait. It's the time to shoot her and I did it. Human resource konon. You tu setakat executive level aje. If attitute bagus tak apa lah. Ini macam apa..gambong! Ok lah mok chaw lok..if wanna know more detail about what happen..PM me then.. smile~

xoxo

Sunday

Blessing Sunday. Just woke up about half hour ago. Back home late at night from family gathering. Well its very warm when everybody gathered. So yesterday punya activities is..morning spent time with Mommy, be her driver and have lunch with her. Then after I sent her off, I outing with Teddy and walk around the mall. Got nothing to do so kinda boring mah. Miri where got such better place can go. Other than all the mall here in Miri, where else we should go le. 

And today is Sunday, I don't know which one I should accept. Every weekend I have more than 2 invitations and weekday pula no need to say lah. Geez! So busy of me nowadays. Wanted to pamper myself in SPA. Relaxing my body and mind. Euwww~~ How good it is! Nahh..never mind. Wait until my next trip in August. Give another shot for myself. This the only chance for me to enjoy while College still in semester break. Next semester will be more tough I heard. So I must struggle hard. No hanky panky time. I can do it! 

By the way, there's one topic that I would like to write. While I walk around the mall. I saw someone that I familiar with. But I still couldn't confirm who is that person. I only can see side view mah. So when she turn her face to full view, Oh MG. I am truly darn right! It's her! My ever best buddy since school. Before that, I like her hair. Hehe.. We ever be best friend but the friendship turn sour on one day. Yet until today I still confused what make she changed so drastic toward me. If it because of $ that you wanna lend from me, I am so sorry dear that I couldn't lend you that much. It is such a big amount. You make me felt guilty until today. Do you realized that? I am too naive for you. I did so many thing for you yet you treated me like this. But then its ok dear. Past is past. May God bless you and your family. I'm happy that you get married and gifted a daughter. Cute of her. I heard too about what had happened to you. Dear, do change yea. Don't ever do such thing again. I am so surprised when I heard the news from brother. Why the heck you did it?! I never tot that you did it. It's really against the law. Luckily the management didn't send you off to balai. I often seeing your parents in town. It's been long time didn't visit them as I did last time. Miss your mom too. Everybody ever ask me what happened to us, to our friendship. I just keep it silent without an actual answer. Let it keep by myself. 

I really hope that one day, we back again like the way we are before. Talk and share everything like we always did. It's really meaningful moment to us. May God bless you dear Atty. Amen.

Btw, bought new shoes! Nike! Wee weee~~ Another money spent. Geez!

xoxo