How I wish I be a rich person. I mean not too rich but consider affordable to pay anything. Been involved myself in working field about 10 years yet I still don’t have proper financial. Hurm.. what a shame. Sometimes I do feel envy seeing some of people afford to have what they wanted to have. Vacation to any places I want. Pamper myself in Spa, shopping when ever I need, etc. How nice is that.. but then here I am. Still with my most ordinary person who just can see others enjoying their better life.
Its so lucky for those who born with better family background, and can menumpang kesenangan their parents. Easy to say, their parents’ money. Different when it come to my life. My parents not a type who can pamper their children with luxury life. Not even once. We only have certain request that only can be approved base on necessary needs. That’s why I prefer save my school allowance and tie up my stomach (fasting) just because wanna have what I wanted. Yea.. teenagers desire in trend. I ever kena scold by dad when I brought back a pair of lather shoes (which is so popular by that time) that I bought using my saving. That’s the first thing I have with my own saving. I still remember that shoes. Too bad that I don’t keep it. But at the same time, dad was so proud of me. He know that his only daughter would survive in her life no matter how hard she going through it. Yes father, struggling so hard for my own life.
Although in my life of 30’s, I still under my parent control. Mom, after dad gone, she controlling every thing. Including our own privacy life. We couldn’t be breath freely. I just don’t understand her sometimes. Yes I know that she worry but not until everything she need to be controller. I am big enough. Not hers 9 years old daughter. I do need my own life, outing with my friends, relax myself, to be alone without interruption. I do need it Mom. Its not because I don’t obey on you. Your children now have they own life, their own responsibilities. What parents do when their children start can survive by their own, is giving them moral support. Not to stop or to limit their achievement. World changing so do everything in this world. We couldn’t just let ourselves kena pijak most of the time. I just hope that Mom could understand the needs of her children. Never once her children forget about her. We know without a MOTHER, we are nothing.
Mom, we love you so much. We just need our own privacy times sometimes. We are still taking care of you, making sure we have time with you. Yes that is what we often doing for you. I myself, dividing my time and put family as priority. When I still in the age of 20’s, I do protest for my own desire. That was past. Now, I prefer to shut my mouth and just let people continuing saying what they think they should. We cant stop them. Just pray to God, ask for forgiveness and bless everyone. And I know I get reward from that. Its no need to revenge, no need to get mad, no need to be prejudice. What will we get from all of that? Satisfaction? Why not we switch our satisfaction to something that worthy, for goodness. One day, we will get lots of reward from what we did for goodness. Experienced is useful. Experienced is my leader. I be advisor to myself.
xoxo
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