Last day of year 2010

December, 31st, 2010

The last day of the year 2010. I don't have any plan where to celebrate and how to celebrate. Everybody still in sad mode as grandma just passed away. It's feel like everyday is same day. Just that its all depend on how people wana celebrate the event. Last year new year was nothing as everybody not around. Then this year new year pula tak cun timing. But hope can spend the countdown with someone that I luv~ someone that did stolen my heart. *blush blush* My big hand!~ Miss him so much.. cant wait to see him. Hopefully he will be available today. At least by being beside him I can smile although I quite stress with work matters and the lost of late grandma.

What's your next year target? Aim for what? I just wish to have new few things ; such as a car, aircond, and new phone. But I still need to settle what I hasn't finish in year 2010. Hutang babe~ Never will finish one de lah.. Geez! When it can settle? Sigh! People keep on moving further but I still stay on the same sole. 

At least this year end I have new place in the office. I'm happy to have new space. It's more bigger compare to the old space. It's not 100% done yet. I still need to wait those Bangladesh finish their work to put up the air cond cover. Still a lot of works to do to arrange my place. I just afraid with my absent they will simply arrange my place. I must come over awhile to have a look else I wont happy with it. Now I got more space to have my meals, to put stuffs, and cabinet to put and lock my bags and etc. I don't worry so much anymore. It's more than enough now compare to previous place I only have one table and drawer only. While the rest have more than that. I do hope management will replace my computer from big head to flat screen. But I don't think it will be work. We have a head of department but not fully can be use. And my admin manager, do she know what the meaning of head of department? One more thing that make me so so so tak puas hati. I felt like she's using me by handling other non-related company's account. Yes, because, I still hasn't receive any compensation/ incentive for doing the account. What the hell...

xoxo

Moving is tiring

Exhausted day!! It's second day office moving, from 3rd floor to 2nd floor. I felt so tired, back ache, leg sore and many more. I hate moving! I thought it would be easy for me as I don't have much stuffs to move out seems that I can say I still new in that firm. But what make me so tired is to place my table, cabinet and drawers. And take out my stuffs from other cabinet to my own cabinet. Geez! We moved the furniture by our own selves. Berat what.. I bet you all questioning 'Where gone all the guys?' 'No men help?'. Ada men pun no use le.. It's a practice to settle anything by yourself. Weird right? Yes it is. Try on to apply working with B**, then you know how it feel working in hell. LOL!~

Today's arrangement ain't satisfied me at all. I need one more cabinet but I couldn't take the new one because its for new recruit. So what?! Then the aircond. What the hell.. it cold than upstairs de aircond. Geez! I'll be frozen meat sitting under cold temperature. The building have it own aircond but I don't understand why must they install 2 huge aircond. Right below my place. Stupid idiot! The office planner so good in arrangement uh. I thought she's clever, idealistic but everything seems wrong to everyone. And the funny thing is there's no aircond remote. Damn! I dislike the toilet. I'll miss the old toilet. Big space and hotel standard toilet. Not like what we have now. But at least we have new fridge today. 

What I like about my new place is I sitting next to the window. I can see the view of green view from outside. And I don't need to go up to 3rd floor anymore. Just that I couldn't hang up at Jatty's place anymore. Sigh! Have to wait until next Monday to see how's my new place. 

 Can't wait to see my big hand again.. miss him~

xoxo

She's gone ~~

She is gone. Gone forever.. and leaving us without a word. Even thou I seldom visit her but I can feel the loneliness without her around. She is the last eldest great grandma. I'll be missing her even not close to her. As she will owes be my love one. The day she gone..its rainy day. God giving his way to welcome her and be beside Him. I'm so sorry I couldn't make it to see you for the last time. It's kinda hard for me to get permission from my management. May she rest in peace.. and may God bless her.. Amen~

Christmas 2010

Christmas...

We managed to do open house on Christmas day. It's been 5 years without celebrate Christmas season since after dad gone. We did made it until the end of the day. So happy seeing each other came to celebrate with us. Mom's uncle and family came over to stay for Christmas holiday and cousin with family too. Fully booked house on that day. What make this year Christmas so special is I did prepared some door gifts for the kids and adults, candies with cute little bear stick on it. I've been sleepless and restless for 2 weeks just because for Christmas preparations but I'm happy until the day of Christmas. Thanks God for your giving. It was very meaningful to me and my family. Too bad my best buddies couldn't make it for this year Christmas, Sophia & Lee Eng. Hope both of you will be around next year Christmas. One thing so special about this year Christmas is I got Christmas special gift from my best colleague buddy, Ms Chong a.k.a Miao Miao. It's a perfume!! Thank you once again. I'm loving it!~ Muahhhh! Now thinking what should I give for her next year CNY's gift. 

Oh yea..beside the happiness of Christmas, I have another story. I don't know if I should feel it funny or stupidity of drunker. Mom's cousin was drank until drunk on the 3rd of Christmas. And what he did is.. he act like he is the bigger Mafia here in Miri. Geez!~ Asal mabuk nak bertumbuk. Apa reti kahh.. I don't know if he realize what he's doing that time. He even wanted to fight with brother. And brother couldn't control of his patience limit and did gave him a punch. He deserved it as he is so stupid! 

Moral of the story : Don't drink until drunk else you'll get in to trouble.

xoxo

Moving soon~

I'm going to moving soon. Move to new place. Have no idea how it feel at new place. The environment will be not the same as before. Moving to new office lah. From 3rd floor to 2nd floor. Even thou I will miss my old place but I still need to like my new place. New desk, table, and cabinet. Especially the partition!! Geez! Standardize uhh?? Standardize taik kucing! Brainless office planner. The table came without the cables hole. I wondering how Mr. Canon arrange the cables. Tomorrow the day for moving. Will wear t-shirt as its gona be tough work, moving those files to downstairs. 

Okie guys, need go to zzz now.. Sleepy le.. Nite yea..

xoxo

Misc

Story 1

What we do for living? Work. Are we happy with our career? Nahh..I like my profession but then what make I dislike is about unfair / unsatisfied in tasks. I don't remember how I apply for my current job. We skip the part how I get the job lah. I interviewed by Mr. Ling who was Admin Manager. He gave me promises that he couldn't keep it until today. Especially about my increment which suppose to be increase once I get my confirmation as a permanent staff. I didn't talk or demand on that matter as I don't want it become an issue in the future. So I guess I should zip my mouth at the moment. He told me that increment only once a year. Ya lah..that everyone pun tahu mahh.. If increment every month, siapa tak nak?? But what make me felt been cheated is he didn't mention that there's no increment once confirm from probation. Ok lah I still can accept that part. What make me really mad and unfair is why other staff get increment right after confirmation?? Why its be different to me? Because I have no chinese surname?? You told me that there's no increment after confirmation but jadi lain pula. So which regulation you referred to?

My comment : Suck company with suck regulation. Shame!! Using other company regulation instead create own regulation base on Labour law. 

Story 2
We did received our end year bonus and I should be happy. Yes I am. At least I got extra budget. But what make I still don't satisfied is where is my other incentive for doing other non-related account?? I've been handling it for few months and I still don't get what I should get. I'm not working for free ok. I working for living not being your slave! I dislike my new Admin Manager, lady boss. She is so demanding and 'pengampu' lah. I am so stress working under her. I've been doing often mistake since after she handling related tasks. Not because I so stupid or what dumb..but the way she in charge is too 'cruel' for us. Everybody does make mistake.

My comment : Wont stay for long term with related firm. Its seem hell to me. Geez!!

Story 3

Bought few furnish this month. Change new sofa, add another shoes rack (shoes getting uploaded..hihihi) and 2 coffee tables. At least there's few new things in my house now. And I did changed new color for my living room. Dark orchid and pink rose. The dark orchid look so nice. Thinking to change the color for my bedroom. Its all because of Christmas season. This year Christmas, I made open house for relatives and friends. Oh ya..change my Christmas tree too~ and decorated it myself. Nice!! Will change the decoration again next year.

My comment : Feel happy on Christmas day~ 

December

December,

Few things happened in December. I'll post some which I remember. :) Some is There is nothing special about this December. But then I still want to post as I didn't blog quite long. So my blog look dull without me to cheer up. Hehehe.. What I want to blog is about my career, personal and.. anything lah. December...

xoxo

20.10.2010

20102010..It's was special numbers to me. And what make it special its because its my birthday,my day. I know I'm a bit late to post it. Well, I have no time to post anything lately. Kinda felt lazy. Hehe.. but here I am!~

I didn't celebrate my birthday as everyone ask me about any plan for that. Just bought a cake and celebrated most simple moment with colleagues. It's sound cute when they willing to sing a birthday song to me. I luv them no matter how are they. I've been working with them only for half year and they are seems knowing me for ages. They're sporting, sometimes.

I did received a gift from one of my colleague, Ms. Chong. Anyway, thanks once again to u dear. Such a good use of my skin. I loike the product, actually. The smell of grape. Thanks to your kindness 'lao gong' too for lunch threat on that day. Not to forget, thanks to everyone who wishes me, doesn't matter via facebook, sms, or even call. Thanks to my BBF too..even thou she forgot to wish me on the day of my birthday and she directly call me right after she read my text. LOL..what a friend..some how, friend are friend. I luv my friends!~

Alright, its been so late to post my birthday moment..so enjoy reading yea'll 

xoxo~

Audit was suck!

Sometimes we can be generous to everyone..but we do have limit to be generous. Not in every single things.
I'm not gonna talk about generous..what I wana write down is about unsatisfied on something that I shouldn't do! I went for audit in plantation for 3 days. Its irritating job!! And its out from my tasks. I mean, I'm not handling canteen stuffs for audit. Its supposed to be done by other colleague. But then just because she got family doesn't mean she just leave her tasks to somebody else. I got commitment too. But work still work..if I reject the task,what management can do? Dismiss me? 3 days in plantation really tiring. I falling sick until today. And do management care? No!! Not even ask how I am at all. Fucking shit!! I don't mind to be responsible to my own tasks.
We had instant noodles for our first day lunch in plantation. There's no lunch provided! Wtf!! We're human being. We're not oil palm. We need eat for continuing my job. Instant noodles...
We stayed at rest house which is mosquitoes around. Cant even sleep well. We have to continue our audit next day, the canteen's workers not friendly at all. Some more less co-operation from there. We had wasted our day just like that to get their co-operation to settle everything in hurry. I not gonna stay more longer there. No way!
We're not going to stay more longer while the person who is responsible to this stuffs just goyang kaki saja.
No more next time unless its really stated in my job scope. Else kirim salam saja..
But we had lil' fun too while we're there..we met HQ staffs and had chit chat and jokes around. Nice to meet u guys..

Ok lah..have to stop here..else I'll get mad more and more until tomorrow.. :p

xoxo~

Untitle

I feel lazy and moody lately. It's might be effects from what had happened recently. Guess I couldn't control my anger and bloated every where I thought I should. Feel its unlucky month to me. Yesterday I slipped down and injured my knees and it was damn painful! Yet I still feel the painful. I scratched both knees and it look ugly to me. I have to wear clothes that can cover the scars. Argghh! I don't even care about it. Caroll doesn't need to be hypocrite. Accept the fact and leave the fake. Nothing to worry about the scars.
But its not only about my knees. There's few things make me moody. And I'm not ready to say anything yet about it. The time will come whenever I ready.
Btw, at this time, I hasn't get my dinner yet!! I'm starving.. so guys got to go now. See yea..

xoxo

Tiredness trip

Journey took only about 2 hours but its like more than 3 hours.Myy - Btu for 2days 1 night. The training was bored. But have to finish it till the last day. The journey quite bored too. Everybody mind own business when touch down the hotel. We took half hour to get our room. Sleepless.
What I wana write is..about the training. I don't see and feel its a training. Its seems like meeting or discussion. I look into everybody's face...obviously look dull.LOL!~
Anyway, its great trip. We did visited oil palm factory. Stayed at Parkcity Everly Hotel, had great dinner and does shop even thou not much we can get in Btu. Hehe..
Look like I have no idea to go on with blogging. Sleepy.. Nite everyone~ blog again someday...

xoxo

Morality

Morality existed since we born. Believe it or not? But then it could turn to immoral or stay morality. I couldn't believe with certain people, upper age, acting like youngster showing mid finger in public figure. Have no idea what the caused but what we've seen local family vs Bruneian. The scenario was happened at Bintang Megamall last Sunday afternoon when I was on my way to find parking but end up stuck just bcos of this 2,two,dua ego men. At first we tot breakdown car as we been stuck there for half hour.
But we heard different sound,fighting,loudly. Saw both men fight for their own right with no shamed in front public. Just don't understand with this kinda of people. What so hard to talk in proper way instead pointing to each other. They both just like small kid fighting for candies. Bring bad image to everybody. I cant just sit inside the car and stuck there with empty stomach. So I made my mind to hon out. I was so impatient,bcos 'm hungry. It took half hour watch stupid scenario.
For Bruneian, we know that you come over for shop or you memang local people but please don't show bad manners which can bring bad impression to our next neighbour,Brunei. Sometimes I do headache and pissed off when comes to weekend, I only can seen Brunei's car all over the places. Damn! You all penuh kan tempat parking kereta jer lahhhh.... dah lah drive like turtle and act like you all so rich and can buy anything that you wan. Of cos you can...our forex rate $ totally different mahhh...
Ok lah.. I don't wish to continuing ruining my mood in mid nite. I better go to bed soon. Been sleepless for 2 months. Sigh!

xoxo

Envy end with death!

No one really honest in this world.Weird is,they love to curse or 'bomoh' innocent people just bcos of unsatisfied life they having now. Its you who should decorate your path so that you wont get envy on what others get but doesn't you. You should thankful on what you living for not against on others. What you get by doing something that against to religion?? Don't you feel that more sin than drug addict? Do you ever think if there's someone else do the same thing to you? I pray to God that someday you'll get punish on what you did! Trust nobody!

Feeling unwell

Geez!~ Mummy, 'm so sick with porridge on my every meals. Can I have other menu? No taste lah eat porridge. Some more its plain porridge! Huhu... I've been sick since few weeks ago. One to two days will be ok then fallen sick again. Aduuhh...I have to put on weight again. Didn't take proper meals lately. But but but...I couldn't simply eat anything until I really get better. Sigh!
Ok lah.. mom keep on bubbling for dinner. Else I kena makan by her. See yea..

xoxo

Not the fake!

I just don't get those guys nowadays who acting like they're an angel in everything. What make they so proud to be on what they are whilst they just like empty can. Certain guys love to pointing finger to woman like they never did wrong before. There's no one perfect in this world,even if one, that is God.
Why make life so complicated? If you think you so clever, you wont bother to against me. Its really shame when men hardly to humiliate a woman who doesn't accept you as her 'Mr. Right'. You know what? You are such ball-less person! No matter how is my previous life look like, I wont bother to know as I know there's no one other than God know us as well. What is the point you get from what you are doing?? You'll get nothing other than anger. Do respect more on other people. Learn to be more manners in every single action you make. That's how people will respect you. Everybody have their own weakness so don't point the blame on one party whilst you might be the worse than other people out there.
As you said, sex is important. Important than knowing more on how to be more mature and more behave in any relations?? Remind me if I'm wrong but this is the fact that you need to know about morality. Don't be so arrogant on what you have done. Life just once, don't think you will always get what you want.

xoxo

He's was my idol

I miss someone..someone that I adore.
Daddy,do you still remember of your the only lovely daughter?
I wondering how are you now dad?I eager wanted to see you.Wondering if you watching me up there.
I pray for your soul to be place with nice pure holy people.I miss the moment we being together. Miss how you treated your children to be a better person ever,even thou we're not as what you wish we to-be.At least,we (me & bro) can keep on living until today.
Dad,live was wonderful when you were here beside us. You are my idol,my dictionary,grammar,even TEACHER and my EVERYTHING. I never feel shame to have a dad like you. You know how deep is my love toward you. It was a huge impact to lose you. I lose my path, I lose myself, my confidence in everything. Our family wont be the same as before where you still around. Everybody doing everything by individual. With no leader, we proper management, everything is mess. I wish you were here whenever I need you to guide me as you usually did. There's no one can replace you, dad. No one can be you. If it is, it wont be the same. Your knowledge, your honor, your manners, your attitude..
Remember when the time me and brother still small kids, we like to fight and you always win him and scolded me even thou you know it wasn't my mistake. But you never scold me right after that. I do still remember when you taught me not to give up easily when you push me to go more further deep to the sea until I almost get drown and you did saved my life. But dad, i never put you as my enemy. I being nice to everyone as what you taught me. *wink wink*

Now, everything is different. I feel empty. I feel I lost something that so precious. And that is you, dad.
When you still here, everything under control. People likes listen to your advices, stories and knowledge. Because you know, you wont loss anything. You are so kind until you never have intention to hate anyone without reason. I know there's certain people might doesn't like you dad. But as you said, we don't have power to stop them being so ridiculous and we not suppose to keep revenge and heart feeling either. What we should..sharing our prayers to everybody. You never easy to give up in every decision you made. For the sake of your family you built, you never stop walking to the top for the best for us. And you did it dad! You built us a house to stay, you gave a special life to each of us, you gave sunshine in every angle to everyone of us.

One thing dad, I do feel regretted that I've made decision that you never wanted it to be. I know deep inside your eyes, hard for you to accept.I'm so sorry dad. I'm so sorry. If there's a way for me to ask for apologize in front you, I would pleasure to kneel to do it. You threat me such a good person but I never realized that I may hurt your feeling. You rather to keep silence not to talk where is my mistake. You love me more than you do. If time can turn back, I, definitely will do the best for you, Dad.

We do love you dad...we do...

Flowers~

My lateness to post all the flowers arrangement that me and Eng Eng has made for Mother's Day.Even thou its just for fun and our interest onto flowers arrangement,its really was a great moment we together working on it.So here is the fresh beauty flowers we made...

Few pixies which I can upload for now.There's few photos in collection,but the uploader having problem in uploading.
Its tough job to do yea..been completed the mission until 5 am in the morning.Freaking tiring!But its fun,tho.
Ok guys..coming up with new blog~

Sick and no mood at all!

Sick again in this month..sigh!
I hate when flu attacking me as I hate sore throat is the 2nd enemy attack.I taking mc today..
Staying at home taking rest with nothing to do other than stick on with my laptop.I hate when it come to feeling that I dislike the most;bad mood.
I got no mood to blog but hand itchy wana type at least something on my blog.
Today weather seems no sunshine at all.Cloudy as me too~
Then,I should take my medicine and take rest awhile.

To be continue~

Bu bu cha!~

Sometimes we do feel we did many mistakes in entire life.And we eagerly to fix it back as normal.The more we make things be perfect,the more we get disappointed.We never stop from trying the best for our own life.Some people get better life,and some people struggling for better life.We just human being..ordinary person.We have nothing when we come to this world.

My point wasn't this..
Its all about how I am going through my life day to day.It's tough road...and we seriously have no idea which road to the better life.I feel pity to myself.Nothing special about me and nothing wrong about me.I just ordinary person ever.I have my own identity.I don't copy right people's Principe.I seriously don't mind what ever anyone says about me.What I know I don't give a damn!WTF with all the bitches!What's all about to have my own life?!

Ko ada apa yang aku ada??
I have this,do u have too?I don't have what u have,I don't give a damn pun.What ever I have it now,its non of your problem.I do shop whenever I want to.I drive to any where I want to.I am who I am to be.I eat any flavor of ice cream.I have a lots of friend who does love me.My life suppose to be happy but it wasn't.I hate kena control by anyone.I hate argument.I hate migraine.I hate cheap publicity.I hate bitches..I hate who they think they are so perfect than others.But I don't hate when they critic on my appearances.I have my own style what...

Love is suck to whom never know how to love someone...
What do you think about love?Romantic?Marvelous?Sexy?Nahhh...not much people who really know how to love someone.Don't ask me with the same question as the answer will keep ONLY by me.I love everyone in many ways.Love friendship to friends.Love warm soul and heart to our lover.Love cares to our families.Its how we ourselves to love the person we love.Its not only about love..trust,cares,sacrifice..important!Don't judge on what people might be.No one perfect neither me.But I thankful to God had created someone like me.I never regretted born to this world.At least I know how is life going through.I love you God~
People can change.From being bad to good person and so on..I not good person either.But I really concern on everyone.Tak percaya ar??You may ask anyone who ever close to me.Anyone who know me well.You please to ask..listen what they gonna say about me.I admit I do changed much before and after school.Of cos lah..siapa yang tak berubah bila punya wang sendiri?Anyone can buy anything to make they look nice.

I love fashion!
I love shop!!I am not pretty person but ....I'm cute what..hahaha!!*blush*
Like I said just now,I have my own identity.I don't need cheap publicity.I have my own personality.So you like or not, take it or leave it!

I love you all!~
See yea soon~

Flowers for Mother's Day~

Will upload the pixies of flowers we made .... soon...stay tuned~

Mother's Day

Mother's Day just around the corner.Left 2 days more,me as a daughter gonna celebrate Mother's Day with beloved mom.Even thou feeling not well,I still carry on with my flowers business.No matter how hard we struggle for everything in anything,God always be with us.I making business not only on profit but happy doing what I like to do. Some more its fun and can learning me more in business line. Nothing is impossible. I knew I can do it!Gambateh Caroll!~

Quite packed order we get this time.But we'll gonna make it the best for our customers. I love making business. I'll grab opportunity in anything that can earn $$. Who doesn't wish to be more lightly in any financial problems?I don't wish myself burdening and drowning with debts. No way! But this is not the purpose of my blog story. Wish to sharing info with everyone (thou no one yet in my followers list :p). Mother was a gift like I said my previous blog. It's not a mistake,not wasting,annoying to celebrate Mother's Day with our beloved mom. I make one flowers for my own mom. With my own efforts. This is the 1st time ever I gonna make for her. Even I doing business,its not a problem for me not to make gift for her. No matter how mom treat me,I will love her...forever.

Fresh flower (mix : Carnation and Lily) for mother and a Chocolate Brownies with Cheese Topping too~ Wish she love it.. Happy Mother's Day Mummy~

You're special gift to me

Mom, there are no words
that can possibly express
how much you mean to me
and how much trust I feel for you.
you've given up so much for me,
more than I deserve.
no matter how bad it gets
I can always count on your smile.
when you laugh,
your eyes light up
much like the stars
in the night sky.
you're my shoulder to cry on,
my leg to lean on,
that rope that holds me together
so I don't break.
I hope you know I love you,
with every bit of my heart.
you're not only a mother to me,

you're a friend, a companion but most importantly..you're a gift

I love you Mom..I love you so much~
Happy Mother's Day~

It's how I be myself~

In all the world,there is no one else exactly like me.There are people who have some parts like me but no one adds up exactly like me.Therefore,everything that comes out of me is authentically mine becos I alone choose it.
I own everything about me - my body,including the image of all they behold; my feelings,whatever they might be - angers, joy, frustration, love, disappointment, excitement; my mouth and all the words that come out of it - polite, sweet and rought, correct or incorrect : my voice, loud and soft : all my actions, whether they be to others or myself.
I own fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears.
I own all my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes bcos I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me.By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with me in all my parts. I can then make it possible for all of me to work in my best interest. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know. But as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for the solutions to the puzzles and for ways to find out more about me.
However look and sound,whatever I say and do,and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is me. This is authentic and represents where I am at that moment in time,when I review later how I looked and sounded,what I said and did,and how I thought and felt, some parts may turn out to be unfitting. I can discard that which is unfitting and keep that which proved fitting,and invent something new for that which I discarded.

I can see, hear, feel, think, say and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me and therefore I can engineer me.

I am me and I am okay~

Cheater,Liar...

When it turn to feeling of trust and loyalty,you will always reserve yourself to others.But once your trust been betrayed,its turn to the most cruel feeling you have there.Someone that you hope can be your guide,being your wall,lend shoulder when you need it,lend hand when you wana cross the road,wipe for your tears when you cry,to be there when you need him to be there.
Remember when the time everything goes fun,happy,cheers,and full of colorful.You giggle with me,you create watever joke you know,you say you like me when I smile,you whispered to me by telling me I'm the only one.And the only one to deserve on you.Everything comes out;goodness or the bad of the person you care.Now then I realized that love also can be unpredictable.Love also can be fragile.

What's the different between man's feeling and woman's heart??

Anyone can tell me the actual answer?

How do you feel when you found out that unexpected thing come out when you really need the more intention on someone that you 'chop' he's gona be yours??

Well,its what people says,'roda senantiasa berputar,samada kamu di posisi yang teratas atau terbawah.' Life learning us to be more mature.And learn from the lesson.But once the trust been betrayed,kinda hard for anyone to trust anyone too.Be strong in everything.I know I can do it.Even if I fall down,I'll try hard to stand up by myself.How hard I struggle,I still can smile.How often I cry the tears,I will make sure I can smile after that.Even if I fall sick,I will brave myself to see doctor.How hard the feeling to let go,I know I can make it like nothing happen.Life must go on,tho!Chill' babe!! I know you can do it Caroll.Gambateh!
Its will take time to clean up the messy,will take time.Will focus more to work like what somebody said.Yea!Will focus more on work.Life just once,so enjoy as you can now.

Feel annoying and mad when you kena cheated.And keep pointing the blame to woman as they as a man never think about how woman feel when kena cheated.This kinda of person should disappear him from any woman ever.What comes around will goes around.

Adios,sayonara~

The sadness of me~

Living learning me more about life.The scenario of dramas.Being ordinary person,its tough journey to go on through.Its not easy as anyone thought.Life just like dramas.I just want my life to be normal as other people do.Life without too much pressure..too much anger..too much annoying..too much propaganda..etc.I just have no idea how is my life going on in the future.WTF!I'm stuck-ing in the between of scene.What more I can say about my terrible life.But I do know there's more people who living in weakness and hardness in life.
I have mother who always with her optimistic minded.Only will look onto the temporary goodness of someone.But will 100% membenci with someone no matter her own blood related.I just don't understand her even she's my mom.I wish she is like someone's mom who really caring,loving and understanding person ever.But then..no matter how,she still my mother thou.What I can do,just be patience,patience and patience.
I feel like separate or easy to say,tersisih from others.Hey,here I am..still alive wat.Hard to be too kind to everyone but heartless to be too heartless with everyone.So which I should be?Angel or Devil?

.... to be continue~

Gossip Girl

I'm enjoying watching Gossip Girl series.
Season to season..the latest season,season 3.

Watch it with me from season 1 to latest season~

Vacation!

I need vacation!!Desperate for vacation!!Where should I go for long holiday?!
I wanted to go to Kota Kinabalu Island~ Manukan Island. Great place to go.
Feeling so stress and of cos I need full rest.My mind need more rest and peace from any problem surrounding wat.Who wana join me? Haha!Vacation~ here I come!

No manners...

What a terrible day I have.A girl,who thought she good enough to guide someone new like me,ordering me to do something that I don't know.Disrespect me as a senior than her.From day one,I thought she's the person who I can be friend with.But I was wrong right after two months,I know her way in friendship.She totally cant be trusted.She even stab back me lagi!How old is she??She just 22 yrs old!Tsk tsk tsk!!Too young to be back stabber.She thought she can be as a lao pan nian who can instruct anyone,(like me?) to be her follower.But she choose wrong person.Everything will be peaceful soon,as the person who I assisted will back for work journey again.So I'll be free from sharing tasks with that little arrogant girl.
I have my own way and I do not have any problem yet in my tasks so please mind your own business as well ok??I guessed you got plenty of tasks that you need to focus to.We both have different tasks so you have no right to in-charge me.Some more,you just no different as small as an ant.
But I too kind to revenge back.Not worth for me thou..as long as you would not touch my periuk nasi ok..

Just sharing..~

I am still determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be; for I have also learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances.

If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it.


Let us rise up and be thankful, for if we didn't learn a lot today, at least we learned a little, and if we didn't learn a little, at least we didn't get sick, and if we got sick, at least we didn't die; so, let us all be thankful.

Chao~

The chapter begin~

The day 'Ugly Goozze' was born~

Why this blog created?
It could be simple blog.Create just for fun,to express feeling,to advertise anything and to share everything.

Who's 'Ugly Goozze?And why 'Ugly Goozze' instead 'Goose'?
Was born to the world with named given by lovely parents I ever have; Carol Honey.Ugly unique of me growth to be a cute,tough,strong-strength person,kindness and ambitious person. The age of 20's,then now I have a chance to crate a blog in Blogger.Why Ugly Goozze?I loike the word of UGLY and GOOSE,but chosen GOOZZE instead GOOSE is to create the different.haha!I dono..maybe because I like?Yea..I like so no question ask ok??

So for the starter,I could only intro myself in short length.Coming soon for next blog...soon?later?tomorrow?A day after?A week after? Just stayed tune~

Love yea.. <3>