Put yourself on my shoes before judging me

Midnight blogging while I have topic to share with. I have this kind of relatives or I should say 'satu kampung' who loves to kepoh about other people life instead thinking how to improve their own life much better. I guess this kind of people doesn't have any interesting activities to do other than humiliating, insulting and mocking others. I wonder if they know what they did wrong. 

It's happened about an hour ago when my mom received a called from her so called 'uncle' from kampung. I thought they just having a normal chit chat. But after few minutes, I heard the conversation became more serious and I signaled to Mom who's on the phone and what happened. Mom ignored me. So I just let mom continuing her phone conversation. 

Once again I heard the conversation about. It's about me. Then I know what is going on. The conversation more and more serious until I have to interrupt mom. I took mom's phone from her and talk to the person. I just want to know what that so serious until that Uncle need to call mom late at night. And I thought that was an emergency news. But unexpected! It was about me, about my pregnancy, my life, and about my husband. What the f***!! Why they are so kepoh to know how I should decor my life after this? Past is past. There is nothing to talk about unless you purposely create a problem that can cause me to 'punch' you back. 

Here I would like to share some advice to this Uncle and other people that have intention to ruin my life or busy body about my family. There's certain thing where we should and shouldn't busy body too much about others. Especially when it come to personal. I do have plenty of time if I want to be one of them - ruin and kepoh people life. But I am not that type of person. Because I know how to make my life more interesting from day to day. And I do believe in karma. You buat jahat, you kena balik. So that's why I have no interested and have no guts to destroy other human life, unless someone start it first. 

Life is so wonderful if you know how to color it. Furthermore, those elders should think more wisely before they start a word. Look yourself onto mirror before you judge and talk about others. How far you know about my life? My marriage? I don't ask you to judge me. I have God who only can judge me. And I only deal with Him when I die someday. Dosa sendiri tanggung. I tak minta sesuap nasi pun dari sesiapa. Even saya berhutang pun saya bayar balik okay! 

When I'm in difficult moment, where I need some help, did any of my relatives willing to help me? No, they don't. Bila I senang sikit, they start to play their roles as a 'backstabber'. I know I still lack of knowledge and I should respect the elders but sometimes we have make some correction on their opinion. 

Well, if you think you are right because you dulu makan garam, at least say and show the truth. Don't say something that really doesn't make sense. Don't make I have no respect toward you. I have right for that. BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT MY FATHER.

xoxo

Life full of stories

Hot weather.. sweating even after shower. Now having my late lunch while watching tv. 

Soon, I'll be a mother to my own child. Couple of months left. I have mixture emotion - feeling excited, nervous, scare. But I pray to God to make my delivery process will go smooth. Amen.

Nothing that can make every parents feel bless once they see their child right after they born to the world. I've experienced too many in life except the coming experience. I love my new family - a husband and coming newborn child. I love my husband the most. I falling in love with him everyday. I do hope that he will be a good husband and a father to my child. 

Previous marriage gave me a huge impact. And I did learned some of my mistake. What did happened previously will kept in my diary of memory forever. How I wish I have button of DELETE so that I can delete all the memories. I regretful with my previous marriage but I am so thankful to God that I've found someone good to me. 

What's comes around will goes around. I believe in karma. Only God knows everything. Now I only need focus to my new life. I am tired for being a slave and living in the darkness of evil. My life going to be more interesting after this. And I will make sure my relationship with my husband gonna be a perfect relationship until the death separate us. 

God bless us.

xoxo

Another day counting...

Morning people.. it's almost noon actually. Woke up very late every day. Well, since I quit my job and be a fully time jobless, I have so much time to do anything that I cannot do while I still working last time. I have too much free time until I get bored, sometimes. Since I am in 'bloated period', I'm a bit lazy to drive or do some outdoor activities. I prefer to stay at home rather than burn my skin under the sun. Yes now even worse. Haze every where and it's thy season. Do not drink less water. I heard quite few news about houses burned because of the weather too hot. Poor them. I do hope those people to be more carefully in burning bushes or what ever that can cause fire burning. 

Pray for those whom in difficulty situation. *Finger cross* 

I am 7 months pregnancy now and left 2 months plus more to my due date. Seriously I say, I am exciting for my delivery. Counting my day for my delivery time. My baby is a cute baby, fair skin, cute smile like his mommy, handsome like his daddy.. yes my baby is a boy. I am going to have a son! Very active baby. Every day I received kick boxing from him, no matter day or night time. I am gonna have a healthy baby. I have a wonderful moments during my pregnancy period. Experiencing a lot of different moments and baby movement. I can't imagine and describe how wonderful to be a pregnant woman or a mother-to-be. It's a miracle. Thank you so much God for your wonderful gift. 

Thank you to God for what He did and gave. Thanks for the wonderful gift. Now I have my almost complete family - a nice and loving husband, and wonderful moments pregnancy. I pray to God and asking for blessing for my big families. Thank you Father. *Finger cross*

How I wish Daddy still around. He probably be the most happy grandfather-to-be. But everything happened with reasons. I wish Daddy live happily in heaven. I miss you daddy~ Really miss you. 

What past is past. I wish I have a good life after this. And I pray that I can face every difficulty ahead. 

Counting hours to celebrate Eng Eng's belated birthday today. Gonna have my first makeup look!

xoxo

6 months +

Back on track... Hubby went back to work this morning and I'll see him again in 3 months. Starting missing him. Huhu... I felt comfortable when he is around. At least I have a fully driver and I don't need to drive for a month. He look more excited than me about our coming newborn. He can feel by himself the movement of the baby inside my womb. I took opportunity to let him experienced by himself. In handling pregnancy wife at the same time. 

Now then I am in my 6 months plus pregnancy. By the time he come back home, its my due month. I really hope he can come back earlier than suppose. Just in case I need to give birth before the due date. Well, most important I want him to be beside me when the moment I struggle with pain. I am getting heavy and easy get tired. I get to know what's the gender of my baby. *not gonna say it here yet.* Easy for me to search for a name for my baby. :) Baby more active than previous month. The kicking more tough and hard, even I sometimes had breathless. Naughty baby I have. 

Preparing my budget for newborn stuffs. Been doing my survey for baby bed and mattress. Wow! Now then I know all those stuffs are damn expensive! I couldn't find the wooden bed so I've decided to buy the one with easy clip type of bed. Furthermore, I can uninstall the bed if no longer to be use. Now napkin cost expensive too. RM30+ for just 10 pieces of napkins. That's not count the other stuffs such as milk power, feeding bottle, nipples, clothes, baby sundries, diapers, etc. Such a huge budget. I hope I can save enough budget for my maternity fees + doctor fee for my delivery service. 

* I cannot wait to see my baby! Mommy and daddy do love you!*

xoxo