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Been away for quite long. Didn't have time and I can say have not in the mood to blog thou I have a lot of things to blog here. Today I would like to write something that crossing in my mind. Hurm..Idea.

I've been sick leave for a week since last week. Faced chest pain badly and seriously back ache. I thought it just for awhile but its still painful until today. It's hurt when every time I swollen anything. Killing me softly. So far, seen 4 doctors (included heart specialist) but yet all of the doctors said the same thing, 'have no idea what's wrong'. Well, what say you? If even specialist couldn't check on my sickness. Weird but that's what I am going through now. Painful. I feel trauma to take any meals. I lost my weight immediately. I have problem with my sleep. Couldn't drink too. I am not strong enough to get rid of this sickness. It's seems to pull me down. Never feel like this before. Taking too much medicines make my memory getting lesser. I easy forgot anything. Wondering if the medicines making me lost in memory? Could be. That's what I feel now. I hope I can be like usual, normal. I want myself back, happy full of laugh. May God bless me. Amen

At the same time I am trying to stand up, some people just so free talking and making fun with my absence. I wish, whoever they are, will fall sick someday. Let them feel how it feel in dying. Nowadays, politic in workplace getting worse. Those auntie in the office, terasa terancam and trying to save themselves still in the same level. Halohaaa~ Kalo dah tua, tua lah tu..beri lah peluang to those yang still young. Geez. 

Just know about my previous semester exam result. Darn shit! How come I can get such pointer??!! I've tried harder to get better pointer and what I get so so very disappointed me. I don't want to talk about it. next time.

xoxo