Welcoming new year 2012 and good bye year of 2011. Was busy with own things until I have no time to blog on the first new year. Ok let's talk about new year countdown first. 31st Dec, new year eve, as usual, be mom's driver and accompany her n aunt to do shop and I spent half of my day with them. After that met my buddy Eng Eng for outing, suppose shopping but I don't feel wanna do shopping on that day. Spent our time in Parkson and I get nothing in hand. Back home with empty hand. I don't even see any nice clothes or nice stuffs to buy. My mind only to CR bags! Ok done with Eng Eng, I'm about rushing heading myself back home as I have another appointment with Teddy. Ya.. splitting my time into 3 programs.We had our new year eve dinner at Hotspot cafe and waiting for countdown at beach. Waiting for fireworks.
January 2012
My plan ruined. (sound rude of me..sorry) Grandpa have to admit to general hospital after check up at other private hospital. And that the day we started busy by handling everything as mom need to assistance grandpa in the hospital. So its my duty to be babysitter the granny and the kids. I was busy until today. I even have no time for myself. I only can steal couple of hours just to get out myself from the situation. I wonder if people do understand my situation when I have to cancel my plans for the weekend. It's not like I did it in purpose. My family needs me more at the moment. I have to take off from work today as I need to switch off with brother to taking care of grandpa. I am not superwoman but to trying hard to do the best for everything around me. Especially, my family. No matter how they treat me, they're still my family. A family that need my support and that's my duty and responsibility that God's handover it to me. Things happened with reasons. I've lost my beloved father when I don't manage to be on his side. I didn't take care of him when he ever admitted to the hospital. I felt guilty until today. And that lessen me. I don't want the feeling of guilty and irresponsible hunting me once again.
Some people very hard to understand others. I wonder if they were in my situation and I do want to see how tired, painful, exhausted they are handling and facing all those matter. Don't regret after. I experienced it before. And no matter how I will try my best to handle things smoothly. I do hope anybody do understand my situation. If they wouldn't understand me, how could I respect them? Lu piker lah sendiri..
Need to stop here. My Christmas tree waiting for me to pack off it into boxes. Geez. Susah jadi perempuan!
xoxo
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