Saat keboringan..

Great weekend I had! Mini party at home was fun. Kira pre-gawai lah tu..hehe.. Cousins and friends did hit the house until midnite. I hilang suara on the next day caused of too much contribute my voice. Haha! But still can talk lah. Long time didn't make some party at home since last year. It's quite fun too. Next weekend will be ladies night gather and I can't wait for that. There will be happy hour moment with girl friends, long lost friends. But for those leng zai, can participate too. I still remember the last time we gathered, sampai patah hotel punya bed cause of too 'heavy' jump on the bed. Really crazy. Hopefully we don't repeat the same thing again k. Else we all have to pay for the damage. LOL!

School break started today. So I can relax my mind after work and can start with my assignment which need to be done on time. Sigh! I hate assignment. Luckily its only 1 assignment compare to last semester. We still waiting for last exam results until today. So slow punya lah. Can't sabar to know what I get. *nervous mode* Aiya..pass punya lah. Nothing to worry one. Ye dehh...

Miss Miri 2011 just ended last night at Eastwood. Wondering who's the winner and entitle as Miss Miri 2011. Hmm.. how I wish if I can participate kan kan kan.. mimpi saja lah. Too bad I couldn't attend the function as I am busy chilled out with my lovely ladies. Long time didn't spend time with them. So I grab the opportunity to hang out with 2 gorgeous and cute girl. Did my shopping for the 1st time since January! Oh my.. but yet I still stick on my motto, 'buy if necessary' only. I have great time with my girls. Not to forget shopped for nose stud too. I bought 3 types of nose stud. Hehe.. Not much choices lah. All look the same design. I choose blink blink type of stud so lebih menonjol. Why wanna waste to look 'valuable' while you deserve to do so? My next project will bring big surprise to everyone. :p

Gawai just around the corner. I don't apply leave for this year Gawai as mom doesn't feel wanna celebrate Gawai festival. So I just stay in Miri this year Gawai loh.. its ok. At least I can finish my assignment and have a lot of activities on public holiday. I have a lot of plans for this week. My admires pula keep on asking me what I'm gonna do this coming holidays. Well, might consider them if I feel boring. Hehe..

Will update more and more of my activities. So stay tune yea.. smile~

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On The Floor (let's dance!!)

Random

Beautiful day~ And it will end with happy moments, hopefully. Love weekend so much! Done my laundry, tidy my room and self manicure (just simple manicure). Now then I having my greatest life that I missed out a lots. Doesn't need bother myself with relation commitment anymore. In open relationship is better! LOL! Don't jealous k.. So I have plenty times to do anything I want. 

Talking about open relationship, it is quite interesting uh. :p Well, as you all know, I do have my own fan(s) or admire(s) that queue up to fill up the forms. It's good when we jadi tontonan semua orang kan kan kan. I realized after the previous fucking damn shit relation, my life become more peaceful and happier. I met new friends and having fun with everyone. I even dare to pierce my nose and next will get myself a tattoo. My family, especially mom even support and choose what tattoo is nice for me. Haha! Amazing! Well, it just a plan and I might go and do it anytime when I feel wanted to do it. Like my piercing (nose) case, I don't plan it properly, it's suddenly plan. So who know I might suddenly pula go make tattoo kan. Hehe.. but the most thing I wanna do is, to dye my hair. Kinda boring with with natural color. Make some changes before I go for vaca~ Hopefully I have much time to meet all my friends and fans/admires on my vacation. Life is wonderful, indeed. 

Ok guys, have to stop here. Need take my shower and get prepare for chill out!~ Fun day out. Prettiest girl day out~ Smile~

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I did it! I did it!!

I am proud of myself! Bravo! Proud because I finally can do something that I never thought I brave enough to do so. Hehe! Paling takut sakit one. But never realized the courage and strength came by itself after I saw Sophie's photo after she pierce her nose. I determined to do the same thing and planned to expedite my project this coming weekend, but I cant wait that long (although just 2 days coming) as I might change my mind. Sophie gorgeous, you know you are my strength. What ever you talk talk ar..sure I be superwoman after that. LOL!

So I bravely myself walk in to one of shopping complex and look for any shop that have piercing service. Almost give up at first but I feel like something keep on pushing me to go on with my plan. Punya lah ter-kezut kena tembak suddenly on the nose. LOL! Langsung tak sakit ohh.. You're right Sophie. It's doesn't feel pain at all until I change it to spare new pattern pierce (as the first pierce kinda 'menonjol'), it's keep on bleeding but only for few minutes jer. And now, it's pretty cool! I wanted to pierce my nose since after school but I don't have the strength to do so. And I did it, finally. 

Next project is... tattoo! Yes! Just small tattoo nia lah. Not gonna tell which part of my body to make the tattoo~ Well, to look gorgeous, pretty, sexy, or even beauty, memang sakit. But kepuasan diri yang di cari. Itu lah wanita. Specialty of women. Slow slow changing myself and I am very the much happy for myself. Ok lah have no more idea what to blog liao as I am so damn sleep. I need some rest and fresh look for the coming weekend. Woo woo~~ Daa~ Don't forget to smile~

Will upload some photos of me in fb. Stay tune guys~

xoxo

Everyone can fly.. Meletop!!

Everyone can fly~~

Woo woo~ Jom terbang! 

It's another disaster for Air Asia server. LOL! Meletup bagaikan popcorn! Anda sudah berjaya mendapatkan tiket murah Air Asia? Now then everyone can fly. Yea..I take opportunity to get cheaper ticket too. And still trying to squeeze myself in Air Asia server and AA keep on pushing me to waiting room pula. Jia lat! Be patience..cool down. I'll get the end nanti. 

My coming 2012 will gonna full of vacations schedule. Yippie~ Destination? Out and in countries. Hehe..But not gonna mention it here. Wait until the day come. I can live happily without those jerks. So faster grab your ticket while stocks last. :) Who wanna join me 'makan angin sampai perut kembong', do get your ticket first. We go rock the world yeahh!!

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Racist - continued...

I've post short article about racist. Here is something that I would like to share with everyone out there. How far would you think about 1 Malaysia? How far would you think about other races? Living and mixing with other races is healthy. It's good to know a lot about other cultural.

What I wanted to post here, it's about one family who thought they are the best and perfect family. But I'll use Bahasa Sarawak and might selit other language dialect for this post. For some reason k. :) Kita semua di lahirkan dalam kehidupan yang tersendiri. I mean, sik lah perfect dalam segala nya. Sekaya ne pun kita, masih ada juak kekurangan dalam diri kita. Contoh? If you kaya pun, don't think you sekda masalah lain. Sama juak ngan race masing-masing. Kita hidup dengan pelbagai bangsa di dunia. Bukan salah bangsa seseorang itu teruk. Manusia sendiri nok molah bangsa diri mpu jaik.

Cam apa nok aku mok share kat ctok pasal relationship seseorang. Kerna terlalu ngekot kata mak nya nok sik berakal, sanggup this person menghancurkan hati orang lain (kekasih nya). Bergerek many years kak ya senang2 jak madah sik mok gik bab mak nya larang nya ngan bangsa lain and not only that, siap gik memburukkan kekasih nya bab kekasih nya ukan anak tauke. What the hell.. mak nya ia sik sedar diri kah yang mak nya ya pun datang dari kampung juak. Kalo ukan kawen ngan bapa nya nok ukan dari Sarawak and ukan bangsa sama ngan nya, sekda mak nya ya hidup senang eh. Kali nya ya nok demand gilak bab mengatur life anak anak nya. Sombong mok mampus!! Jangan nak pandang rendah kat bangsa lain kalo rasa diri sik perfect. And don't judge others sebarang. Orang lain ada kelebihan yang kita sendiri sik tau. 

But what ever it is.. aku harap perempuan ia sedar diri bab nya pun ukan perfect sampe molah orang kedak ia. And for the mother pula, sedar lah diri ia. Kita masih makan nasi gik. Kita tok pun masih hidup dalam dunia yang sama. Yang beza nya hanya lah bangsa jak. Bagus jak ko diam dalam hutan. Standard pun sik ko ia tapi mati mati mok menghalang kebahagiaan anak diri mpun. Vavi Vutan ko ia!!

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Racist

The story begin after this post.. stay tune~~

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Work hard, play hard sakit dah ...

Starting fever and sore throat again.. itu lah.. work hard, play hard. Belum sembuh dah uha uha again. Hehe~ Stubborn girl here. Yet still playing with my laptop waiting my eyes to shut off. Anyway, life so fun when you know how to conduct your life. *wink wink* Smile smile lok~ Still can work hard, play hard!

I woke up early today as I need send brother to airport. After off from airport, I get myself ready for my first activities. Seems that the first plan have to cancel so looking forward for 2nd plan. Swimming time! Yes, chill out myself with friends for swimming moment. Once done with swim (as I hampir nak jadi ice, cause too long soaking inside the pool), we all off and hang out awhile before I head myself back home. Well, there's another plan to go. Photo shoot mode! Seems I got nothing to do at home, so I join those friends for photo shoot. Can't wait to have all the photos and check it out in facebook soon~ Only for selected photos.

It's gonna be busy week again. Class will start very the soon. And it's the time for me to struggle my brain once again. Jia you!! I can do it. Can't wait to start my class again. Ok then, guess I really need take rest. The pain killing me right now. See you guys when I see you~ Nite nite~ Don't forget smile~

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Drunken to Love You OST

Drunken to Love You

I love Taiwan dramas. Especially when the actors and actress were my favorites. I'm in watching new release of Taiwan series; Drunken to Love You. It's comedy romance series which the actress are Rainie Yang! I love Rainie Yang; cute and girly type of person. She in her new style of hair and that was awesome! Look like she's getting better in her acting. 

It's new release so I have to be more patience as its only will upload once a week either in mysoju.com or dramacrazy.com. I like watching this series not because of the actress but because of the story lines quite interesting. How interesting it is, you got to watch it by yourself until the end. And you'll get the answer why this series interesting to me. I have no idea how's the ending but isn't every dramas will end almost the same as other dramas?

Okie then.. got to stop right here. Kinda tired and need early rest. (it's early bed time compare to usual time) Sigh! Nite everyone~ smile~

Enjoy with Drunken to Love You OST~

xoxo

Paparazzi

Paparazzi

Enjoying my wine while blogging~ Perfect wonderful life! I know it’s kinda late now. This is my life currently.

Kita hanya merancang tapi Tuhan yang menentukan. Love is like a friendship caught on fire. In the beginning a flame, very pretty, often hot and fierce , but still only light and flickering. As love grows older, our hearts mature and our love becomes as coals, deep-burning and unquenchable. It's funny, we all really, really got along. I don't know how it was in years past but this year, I was really with a good group of people. No one tried to sabotage each other or steal the other ones moments.

But this is non-related to my introduction up there. What I wana share here is about something else. Well, sharing is caring. :p Once again my stalkers is stalking me by sharing my facebook profile on his/her wall. I don’t get surprise neither mad when I click on friend requests and click on one fake account named Lam Suki. She (as the information mentioned) not only adding me but did shared my profile on his/her wall. Thanks to the person. Who ever you are.. it’s such a good way to let everyone know me more. Might you thought you can ruin or sabotage me by doing such thing. But from people’s view including me, it’s such a lame. The more people get know me the more fans I have then.

It’s such a wasting time for you to create fake account just to add and to follow up my update daily routine. I bet you have your real account and you can add me then. We do understand thus stalker have nothing to do or I can say too boring until they come out with something like that. Why they intend to do so? Because they are envy on how other people having their happy life or might wana know what’s going on with their competitor’s news. Thus they don’t have wonderful life but wish to be how others being to be. Get a life then~

Who ever you are Lam Suki, what you get from doing something like that? Money? Gold? But I do understand one thing, you feel satisfied after what you did right? Siapa sakit hati? Sendiri juga. Me? Nahh.. nothing to get mad at all. Not even a little. Those people who knows me, they know who I am. Not one, nor 10 people but a lot of friends around many places know me well. You’re just human being who created by God, same as me. I am pretty sure you have your own reason to do so. So do I. I have my own reason to do what I am doing and wana do. If you intend to follow my update on my facebook, don’t bother to create fake account. Just add me with your real account instead being coward. I still remember there’s someone who really free to do such things before. He likes to ruin people’s life by post and share anything about me such as photos and my profile. So it’s the same too right? Your intention is to see what is happening on my wall and wanna see my photos album and so on. Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind. Why should I get mad? It’s good opportunity for me. I have free of charge paparazzi who are so free to make publicity on me.

Come on, don’t judge people only one sight of your eyes. Open your eyes wider and try to know me more, when the time you know me longer, you may comment about me. I am who I am, not what I am. Absolutely right that you knew me that’s why you are doing something like this. Am I right?

Here I would thanks to my stalkers out there. No matter what you do, you all does make my life perfect, day to day. I get to know more people and people do ‘judge’ me well on who I am. My life full of smile, everyday. Happiness, indeed. Since after, I get more and more peaceful mind and soul by surrounding all friends who are really concern on me. That’s call sincerity. Without those ‘paparazzi’, siapa lah aku kan? Hidup hanya sementara, apa yang anda miliki hingga hari ini, hanya lah pinjaman semata mata. For me, I don’t feel regret on what did happened in the past. Now then there’s nothing for me to worry about relation commitment. Sky never forever cloudy and the stars never forever hidden behind dark cloudy. Prove them wrong and show them the success of me, someday. And by that time, thus jerks, don’t regret on what did you all did before. Think about myself is the most priority. Nothing to loss as I experienced a lot from the past. Nothing is impossible. It’s not me who’s going to loss anything, but those jerks who don’t know how to value me as their woman. Karma.

xoxo

Fuckin' Perfect

Work hard, play hard

Quite busy for the whole week. Tons of dateline paperwork, other than doing my work at office, I have to bring back my works. Darn! I must finish the account before end of this month else I kena goreng by management. But then although I am busy with my career, not to forget my personal activities such as happy hours, lepaking, and so on with my friends. My life aren’t 100% to career. I need some entertainment to colors my life then that’s the way we appreciate ourselves. Work hard, play hard mahh.. Plus, mom and brother was away for couple of days, kinda peaceful le. Freely can do anything! :p

I went to colleague who is my ex-schoolmate’s wedding dinner. Such a beautiful girl she was that night. How good if I am the one who wearing that wedding gown. Hmm.. someday yea. I wore mini dress and match with my favorite heels. I actually didn’t manage to do earlier preparation. So I just grab what ever my heart and mind say what I should wear. Thou I forgot to put on my accessories, I feel enough with the dress, heel, and make up. Hmm.. more than enough and I did received tons of compliments too that night. *blush* Well well, it’s me thou. Who say that I am not pretty cute?? Haha! Mode puji diri lok. Yea I look pretty gorgeous that night. Result for being good to myself and often thankful on what I have. *wink wink*  

Today, me and 2 other colleagues came out with a topic of diet. Is it important to get slim because they just reach 55kgs? LOL. I am struggling so hard to get that numbers of weight while they wishing to have slim body as mine. Funny. They even ask me if I really put on diet or not. Oh my.. there’s no DIET word in my dictionary my girls. I eat whenever I wana eat, anything. And one thing good is.. I don’t pressure myself to worry to get fat as I will never get fat de. I don’t take any sliming pills too. No use on me as I am slim enough. Haha! What I eat for my meals? Like I said just now, I eat anything as long as I eat. I do take fruits, juice, vegetables, drink milk too, meat, seafood, and so on. Any how, I am thankful to have what God gifted. We are us. We are who we are. As long as we are healthy, that’s enough to go on with our life. Look chubby is not sin. Cute what.. to look beauty doesn’t a must to look slim. Chubby or fat pun can be beauty if you know how to make yourself beauty. Beauty came from inside; your heart and everybody can see clearly your beauty from outside of you. That’s what beauty means… Show on your smile to everyone.

I’ve been busy this few days which is I did attend 2 wedding dinner on the same week. And looking forward for next events this weekend. Jazz festival. I didn’t get a chance to attend Jazz festival last year. Kena jemput for sure lah pergi. Dah dapat ticket free why should I waste it? Isn’t life is wonderful and full with surprise? For those who know me, no doubt I am who I am. Other than busy with my career and studies, I fulfill my schedule with many plans and invitations. Some people thought that I couldn’t live happily after kena dumped. Well, you can see it clearly now that I am enjoying every each of my life, indeed. Nothing to loss thou. I still have friends / buddies and even my fans who care and concern around me.

Other than those stories I am sharing here, there is a story might sound funny. But its depend on you to believe it or not. I’ve been told by colleague that Parkson Megamall Miri is haunted. And one of the shop at new wing are closed because of ‘ghost’ who haunting the place. The owner who own a shoes shop, open the shop as usual in the morning and was shocked when the tauke saw the shop jadi messed up. He thought his shop kena rompak. Impossible lah anyone go and rob shop inside shopping complex. Tak logic betul lah. LOL. So the tauke review his cctv and check if his shop really kena rob or not. But guess what? There is no one appear but scary thing is, the shoes ‘berterbangan and bertaburan’ by itself! Creepy!! If it true, oh my God.. I definitely wont buy any shoes in Parkson! Mana tau that ghost haunted all the shoes there. Hehe.. Hmm.. but then my favorite shoes shop are all in Parkson. Huhu~ Never mind then, I’ll shop whenever I go for holiday lor. Oh yeahh.. be a little bit patience Honey Bee, I’ll gonna fly away to shopping heaven soon and cant wait for another holiday trip end of the year! Muacckkss!~

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The feeling that I've been looking for...

Mother's Day passed. Now looking forward for next event. How's your Mother's day? How you celebrate Mother's Day with your mother? Did you give a hug to your mother and say 'I love you, mom'? Although Mother's day passed, I still wanna blog something about Mother's Day. I've spent the whole day stayed at home. It's been so long I didn't be guai guai at home. Hehe.. often go cuci mata saja. Well, I didn't fully lend hands on cleaning stuffs on Mother's Day. I'm in charge for kitchen for the day. Yea.. that's right, I prepared for the day meals. Especially for mom. We didn't plan to have dinner outside so we planning doing something different this time. 

How good being a mother especially when you are surrounding your lovely kids. Being a mother aren't easy. To raise them for a better future; such as knowledge, good meals, healthy, etc. It's not easy job for a mother to handle. But it's such a wonderful life when you seeing your children growing up beside you. I wanted to be a mother in future. To have my own flesh, seeing my children grow. I definitely will give my children the best but not to pamper my children with luxury life. Enough by giving them a comfort living, fully education, healthy, and the most is, to be someone who know how to thanks and appreciate their parents. I want my children will obey on their parents and can be my best buddies too. It's not only on status as a mother, I want my children to share every problems, no matter if it good or bad. Sharing is caring mah.. I want my children to be close to me like I am their friend too. It's how my beloved daddy taught me about life. He is my best friend and my idol. I hope my children, someday, would be just like him whom everyone respected. He raised me and given me education although I did felt regretful by disappointed him not to finish my education when I went to University. That was the biggest mistake I ever made. Now then I'm not gonna waste my chance on my studies. To grow for the better, I must struggle for it. Jia you!! 

I was so happy today for no reason. I woke up with a smile on my face. I have no idea why I feeling happy even thou now I am smiling while blogging. Weird right? Am I insane liao? LOL! Absolutely not lah. I born with a smart brain what. Impossible can get insane that fast. I am so lucky that I am smart in many things. (mode puji diri) I start my day with a smile and feeling happy for the whole day. Although I have tons of works need to settle on time, yet I still can be relax and showing my happiness impression. Nothing wrong right? I just feel happy today that's why I end up my day with a smile. I came to work with my little different hair style. Well, thou I am not satisfied with the hair cut but everyone does like it. And they even gave awesomeeee compliments; does look like Korea girl with the hair cut style and with my new color lens. I love my eyes and lips. That's the most attractive part. Guess everyone did view my photos album in facebook. It's for those who always wanted to see how do I look like now. Hopefully everyone happy with some new photos, Some more it's been long time I didn't put / update my photo album in my facebook. Don't jealous~ Yes I am look like a Korean girl. Not because I puji diri oh. but that was what everyone says since before. It's started with my appearance. Influenced by Korean series. Huge impact. LOL! Even some of the girls likes the way I dress up. Guess I have no problem with Korea country for next year holiday plan! Hihi~ 

My life so wonderful now then, indeed. Sometimes I couldn't hide my emotions. History remain in my heart that I couldn't erase it. How good if our brain got DELETE button so that I can delete some of the memories that I don't wish to store. Whenever the feeling across my mind, I'll make sure to think about something else, something that only for myself. It's painful thou. Today was the first time I am so happy since being so miserable few months ago. Although I still puzzling myself to know what's the reason I feel so happy today, how I wish I can press PAUSE button and keep today on and on. Something weird happened to me today. I went through weird feeling which is I heard a voice that I known calling my name few times but when I looking around, everybody doing their own work seriously. I was thought somebody tease me but nobody tease me. Might be salah dengar kot. But the voice, calling my name; the voice I so known ...

Well, I better off myself now. Should feeling fresh again tomorrow~ Everyday are perfect day to me. 

Start your day with a smile; from heart and give a sincere smile to everyone no matter who they are. You'll feel much much much better until the end of the day. Good night everyone.. have a bless day for tomorrow. Sweet dream~

xoxo

For my mom~ I love u

Happy Mother's Day to my mom and to other mommies out there~

A mother is the truest friend we have, when trials heavy and sudden, fall upon us; when adversity takes the place of prosperity; when friends who rejoice with us in our sunshine desert us; when trouble thickens around us, still will she cling to us, and endeavor by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness, and cause peace to return to our hearts.

Mother was the bank where we deposited all our hurts and worries. Although the relation between me and mom often misunderstanding to each other, she’s still my mother, thou. No matter what she is the only one I have in the world. And no one could replace her. I look back on my childhood and thank the stars above. For everything you gave me, a mother that taking care for the whole family. She’s the great mother I have thou she not the perfect mother but I accept her as what she is. Everything happened for reason. Right after Dad gone, she have her own reason why she act more aggressive than before. She’s lonely without a husband whom she love the most. Mother: the most beautiful word on the lips of mankind. The greatest thing she’d learned over the years is that there's no way to be a perfect mother, but a million ways to be a good one.

A hundred men may make an encampment, but it takes a woman to make a home. So for men out there, do appreciate women please. The Miracle of Life nurtured by a woman who gave us love and sacrifice. I know how mom treat me since before but I never put it in my heart as she is a mother to me and it’s not something that I should revenge but to give more love toward her. She know more better about her children than other people do.

Mother, I love you so much and please forgive each mistake and hurts that I ever did to u. And I forgiven you and that will still loving you forever no matter how. I know I am not a good daughter as what you want your child to be. It’s normal for a mother being ‘kepo’ on hers children’s matters. But sometimes mom does too much over the limit for that. Mom shouldn’t too much involved in personal life which is not supposed to share with. Sound harsh uh..hehe.. Anyway, I often prays for her health and happiness and wish her being understanding person ever.

 A mother’s work is never done. She works from morning until dawn. She spreads her love and keeps you warm but only once a year we say Mother we wish you “Happy Mothers Day”. So let’s give a huge warm hug and tell her that we do love and appreciate her as a mother to us.

I love you, mom! I do! No matter how is going on between us, I still love you.

And for all mommies out there, Happy Mother’s Day!~ Especially my best gorgeous loving friends, Sophie and mommy wana be, Eng. And not to forget the other mommies followers in my blog. Have a great Mother’s Day. 
Today's Mother day remind me on something, I ever gave a bouquet of flowers for someone's mom and how I wish I can make one for her once again but it's just a dream that will never come true. That someone's mother might get more better than what I ever gave from her new Indon maid. Happy Mother's Day to her too~ It's a great thing to know her. Oh yea.. Happy Mother's Day to that aunty Indon too. Oh she does look like a mother to 2 or 3 children. Everyone does said that. No offence~ Lalalala~ Mama tua~ 

Okie everyone..need start my day with a smile and couldn’t wait to try my new lenses; purple color this time! Woo woo~ Mengancam eyes babes!

xoxo

Sadness changed everything

Blogging while waiting my driver to pick me up for supper. Makan saje kerja. Don’t jealous~ Let’s eat~ (I don’t care sore throat, cough or asthma! I want to eat what I wanted to eat! Still have plenty of medicines mah. Duhhh! Medicines lagi.) Hmm..starting being stubborn. Okie.. what I wanna share tonight, here in my blog is about few things. Complaining about work (as usual), plans, dreams.. etc. Ok let’s start with my fingers journey.

I still on my sweet sleeping beauty when mom on her loud speaker; waking me up. Laziness mode are on when I doesn’t feel wanna go to work. Not recover yet from sick le. Have to force myself to work. Dah lah I tidur late last night just because of that stupid report! How’s report? My report which is tally, end up tak tally pula! I thought I might did some errors in calculation or posting, I ask for favor from other colleague to finalize the mistake. But guess what? She didn’t see any error stated pun. Weird le. How would auditor can make so much different of amount? Since couple of months, they did ask for so many informations which is does make me so annoyed. Ngiao ji type of person lah you! I know lah how is auditor tasks. But isn’t it too much when you ask some sort of question ‘Where gone this cash? Please state, if steal, do mark as stolen cash?’ WTF! The person in charge for petty cash not that ‘thief’ type of person oh. That person are affordable person. What for he could destroy his career just because you want him to certify that report as stolen cash?? Gila! I might going crazy soon as I brought my work back home again. I only have less than 2 weeks to finish all the ‘messy’ account before I start my classes. Duhh.. it’s habit already since couple of months ago. I will never have much time to do my works at home while I have to do my revision on my studies. Study is my priority now. 2 Years will pass so fast without I realize it and I can start plan my next stage for Deg. after done with my Dip. Nothing is impossible right? Work still work and knowledge is healthy to dig. So why should I waste my chance? Hey ok then, just forget about work.

It’s Friday and waiting forward for weekend~ Yes I loike weekend. Hmm.. might pamper myself tomorrow. First thing once I step out from house, must off myself to salon! Seems I’ve planned to cut my hair since last week, just to cut some part jak lah. Or might straight away color it. See how lah. Sigh! I should done it last week but I jatuh cakittt lahh.. huhu~ Itu lah.. main lah hujan lagi, kuatkan makan chocolate and stress up myself with works. Well, I jadi workaholic dah. Next is, of course ‘cuci mata’ mah. There’s few thing I need to get for myself. I might attend my colleague / ex-schoolmates wedding dinner next week. Hopefully can meet my other ex-schoolmates too. Take every opportunities that worth to taken. *wink wink*  To look stunt and gorgeous, I need myself to be ready. I still be who I am, indeed. Well, how for someone to know me well? 1 Year? 2 Years? Nahh.. to understand me easily as long as you know the meaning of honestly in appreciation. Been ‘locking’ myself instead expose myself since so long so this is the time to welcome back for everything that I put aside about MYSELF. I believe, beauty can be found in smallest things too~

Less than a month, there will be ladies day night reunion party! Yes! I couldn’t wait for the day! I understood everyone does understand the meaning of REUNION. My long lost girl friend will gather all the ladies friend who have not been seen for so many years. And she did list out few activities that we gonna do. It’s very hard to see her and it’s been more than 10 years since after school. I miss her. I still remember when we are still in school age teenager. We always dream for better life and travels around the world. Yea she did it although not around the world. At least she has been visit many places compare to me. I have plan to visit Perth or Melbourne, to visit my aunt who is staying there. Might plan after my next holiday trip. Anybody wanna join?? Budget tanggung sendiri ek. :p I am fill full my schedule with a lot of activities such as travels, happy hours, party, hang out, etc. One of the most effective medicine; laugh and happy always. All the sadness gone. While mentioning about sadness, I did read those comments and I’m attracted to one of my blog follower’s comment, she did commented on one of my post. “Dont let anybody put u down. ppl who dono how to appreciate u is their own loss. Well, if he mati2 nak makan shit we cant force him to makan sushi rite? freedom of choice mah. he prefer to eat shit, what to do?” I like the comment so much. LMAO! Nice shot you got there.

While planning for holidays, I’m in planning to change my baby blue. Might change her to little bit big size of baby. However, it’s just a plan. When and what type of ‘baby’ I want, only wait the time I am ready to change her. Or just wait 4 more years until she finish her loan fees. (berangan mode is on) Like I said, nothing is impossible. I might try my luck in some where else which can give me a better offer. Nothing to loss what.. Life is wonderful to waste.

Guess I need to stop right here. My driver on the way to pick me up. Stay tune for my update~ Happy always~ Smile~ Love you all! Muacckks!~

xoxo

Ding Dong~

Done with my report, finally! Now then I can take my night rest. Oh miss to hug my boo boo~ Opps! Before that, must take medicines before zzz.. mc again for tomorrow. Couldn't shut down my eyes and just vomited out everything I had for dinner. Oh my..

Resting my mind while watching my favorite drama series before head myself to bed, any soon. I'm so touched on one of advertisement, about a group of kids who so pitiful being a beggar. It's not what they wanted to be. Those kids should be in school not as a beggar. Some of them still look young in 4 - 5 years old. How pitiful they are. They have to survive to be a beggar while we're living in nice and comfort life. Do we ever think about how naive and pity they are? I've been taught by beloved Daddy not to be so harsh to anybody especially who needs help. Whenever I look and bump into these kind of people (which is blind, sick, etc.) I am please to help them although I am not so rich but at least with that few bucks, they would be happy and smile. They can buy themselves a food or even can get themselves some thing that useful for them. I just don't understand on certain people who so heartless (which is hidup so senang), not even please to do some charity. I'm not show off myself but I did some charity in many ways that I can lend my hand. I dislikes those who thought they are so lucky to have plenty of money but then forgot about how others living in hard way which is need more help. Instead spending their money to no where worthless, why not make it for charity? Nothing to loss right? It's goodness. We will get our return in other way, with God willing. God knows better than us. 

Well, I'm a good person in other part but I don't say I am angel. I can be fierce and bad person too. Being so nice doesn't guarantee you a good life. It's how I manager my life. Only God will decided what punishment it will be on me. What I wanna say here, someone did added me as a friend (twice) in facebook; in different account. He would created new account just wanna add me or wanna see my profile picture. Hmm.. wanna copy paste my picture and let your Indon maid to see how do I look like uh? At least I am better younger look than her who I can call 'Aunty'. LOL!! I tak cakap sombong lah ok.. But what I've seen, among your friends who I ever met and seen before this, their partner, all is same style de. Indon style! Oppss! Sorry. Itulah.. pandang dulu before look down on others. At least my friends, no one doesn't look so Indonesian type of appearance. What the purpose he add me in facebook right after what he said to me will never disturb me anymore? But remember Ah Kai, just keep your Indon maid (Shanty Anisa) as your toy. I tak kisah langsung pun. Just that .... disgusting type of person. That's your level lor. Only can get that such of low standard chick. Woo woo~ (clapping my hand and dancing freely) If you wanna see my activities or my profile picture, no need to bother yourself to create new facebook account. Like I said before, don't let I bump into both of you. I bet Anisa never know that her toy still keep in touch with me. Oh dear, Acheh dah kehabisan stock lelaki ker? Now then hunting to Sarawak to get better life uh? Disgust. By the way, Ah Kai, whenever you have opportunity to read my blog (I wish and my pleasure you would read my blog), what's come around will goes around. To forgive is to forget? Nahh.. No forgive to forget. Doesn't matter either you are attach or not, I am certainly happily get out from your disgusting life. At least, I am not Indonesian level. LMAO!!~

To achieve successful life, patience the most important. I can be patience for that. Slowly build my own dream and show to everyone that I can live happily. At least I have my own career, not just stay at home goyang kaki. I have few dreams which is I'll make my life better. Of cos from the bottom until on top. I've been through a lot of scenario and experienced about life and that does make me know how to think, feel, see, touch, tolerate to others. Some how, there's people who doesn't know how to appreciate what's in front of their eyes. But to says a lot of things which is blaming others for their own mistake that they will never realized. Well people, for those who never go through hidup susah, would they understand how it feel hidup susah? Do people out there know how to be strong mind? Do they know how other people surviving? Do they know those who are smile, laugh, cheers, doesn't have problems? Do they really happy? How far you all know about life? No one please to live in miserable life. And for those who living in luxuries life, doesn't mean it's will be continuously like that. That's why ada baik ada buruk nya. Yang susah tak akan senantiasa susah dan yang senang tak semesti nya senang selama nya. One day, I'll be someone that willing to help those who needs help and I want to be like Daddy who is so kind to lend his hand without care about status, race, color of the skin & hair, attitude of everyone who need his help. He never ask for return. And he never taught his children to be so arrogant and forget about where we came from. How rich you are, it's wont guarantee you happiness. It's how you manage your life to be someone who everyone will remember as a good person in future. My previous relation with two guys wasn't something that I should proud with. Those are same. Ended up to choose Indonesian bitch. when someday come, there's no regret for both jerks as I will never welcome both of you anymore. Be regret on what both of you did to me. And how pain I am, that's the pain you will get. However, I do appreciate some part of both of you (although I get more suffered than happy).

Sigh! I guessing I am mumbling too much tonight. I suppose feel doze after taken cough syrup but my eyes so stubborn to shut off. Ok it's time to sleep. Have a bless night for me and for everyone~ Don't forget to smile, that's my tip for my friend, Jessie as she have been asking me more than 10 times what does make me look younger than my age. LMAO! I still remember how she act when she eagerly to know if I did take some sort of jamu. Uh huh.. I dislikes jamu dear Jessie. Drink more plain water and don't forget to smile and happy always~ 

xoxo

Hopefully recover soon!

Oh geez! I'm about to die soon. Huhu..Been rest and lay down for few days caused of sick. Sigh! I'm over depressed and too exhausted. Cough, sore throat, fever, flu.. and the most painful is asthma attacking me. And here I am, alone. :'( I hate being sick, you know why? I hate medicines. What to say, I have to swallow more than 5 types of medicines. Hate to see doctor too. Huhu.. I rather tahan my sickness until it get worse then I'll force myself to see doctor. Hehee.. that's me. That's why I've been away from blog-ging for few days. Just back to work today and so darn I have to settle tons of works on time! Guess I'll be mc again tomorrow. Sorry lady boss.. I am not octopus who can handle 100 tasks in one day without rest. Beh tahan pressure myself while I am unwell.

What the heck.. I brought my work back home just because I need to email the report by today. Why not tomorrow? It's because you lady boss, who really don't understand how hard your employees to settle their work on time just because YOU ALREADY KENA SCOLD by your big lao pan! If I couldn't make my report on time, what shall you do? Fire me? Scold me? I brought works back home, doing it at this time and tahan my pain as I hasn't recover yet, would you concern meh?? Bullshit madafaker you! Gave me over workload and pushing me to finish everything on time like I am your super-machine-robot! Then point your finger to me if you kena berus by your boss. WTF! You makan gaji, same goes to me. What make us different is you are a manager while I'm just your slave. I still doing my report ohh.. thou I'm sick! Do you appreciate your this one employee?? I ended myself slept on living room sofa with my works still waiting me to be done, every time I brought my works back home. Do you ever know that mah while you puji orang lain pula. Geez! Speechless~

Sudah lah tak di bayar satu sen for handling non-related account. Now then dare to point the mistake to me although you know where the actual problem come from. Brainless young lady boss! Tau mengarah jer. Kia su kia si type of person! No wonder lah you punya nama so busuk at other familiar company, as I've been told by one of your employee juga. Sigh! I hasn't get my dinner yet lady boss. Do you know that mah? Just because wanna settle the report, I skipped my dinner and medicines time!!

Oh my.. I better stop here. Else I will add another sickness, migraine. I have terrible moment this few days, and I don't please to go on. Some more, need to attend few function this month. I need back to healthy le. Be strong! (Hope so... ) Sigh! Brain getting blur now. Must forcing myself to finish the report tonight. Until here for now on. Will be back with new update from me. (Sekadar nak melepas geram jer) Ok chaw!~

xoxo